Since the start of 2011 I've

Gotten a new piercing

Dyed my hair.

Ended a relationship.

Started a new relationship.

Been on a long car/bus journey.

Passed an exam.

Met someone who’s now an important part of my life.

Cried on someone’s shoulder.

Had a massive fight with a boy/girlfriend.

Received flowers.

Had a Valentine.

Written a letter using pen & paper.

Gone to see a therapist.

Been prescribed medication by a doctor.

Read a really good book.

Gone to the zoo.

Spent too much money on unnecessary things.

Traveled by train.

Spent the day out in the sun getting a tan.

Slammed a door out of frustration.

Had an anxiety attack.

Babysat for a friend’s child.

Had a BBQ.

Gone to the fair.

Gone bowling.

Seen a film at the cinema in 3D.

Gone on a date.

Been the only sober one on a night out.

Helped someone home after they had been drinking.

Stayed up all night.

Talked on the phone for over two hours.

Supported someone who’d received bad news.

Watched some kind of live sporting event.

Read an entire book in one day.

Bought a DVD the day it was released.

Eaten McDonald’s more than four times in a single week.

Cried as a result of exam stress.

Met some incredible new people.

Gone to great parties.

Fallen backwards off a chair.

Lost/Broken my glasses.

Worn a watch for the first time in years.

Cried over someone in my past.

Spent hours aimlessly browsing the internet.

Thrown up.

Cried over a film.

Gone out of my way to avoid an ex-boy/girlfriend.

Fought with someone in public.

Been in a relationship for a year or longer.

Cried in front of someone I adore.

Fell in love with the same person every single day.

Lost one of my closest friends.

2012 is this weekend oh wow

2011 is coming to an end. Lets list down some memories from this whole year (off the top of my head);

1) Cape Town
2) Taiwan
3) The Corallien Project
4) The Dreamcatcher Project
5) Bungee jumping
6) Zorbing
7) Drinking to my limit
8) Eco Fashion Show
9) Singing in front of an audience
10) Broga Hill
11) Tanah Rata
12) 30STM
13) Glasgow
14) Baking a rainbow cake for the first time for waifu


2011 Achievements;
1) Won a PAM competition - Booth Competition.
2) Overcame fear of singing in front of a crowd - Studio Acoustic.
3) Overcame fear of falling from a frightening height - bungee jumping.
4) Appeared in 2 newspapers!
5) Winning the poster competition thinggy (I lost my cheap certificate lolz)


Hmm when you list it down, it ain't that much. Hahaha! Good enough for one year.



At this very moment, I feel very uneasy. I have no idea why. Thinking too much I suppose. I assume I've been away from civilization for far too long. It's taking a toll on my judgement.

I have a feeling that my mind is being somehow manipulated. I really don't like feeling this way. I refuse to allow a second party to alter my mindset; just because you're older or think you're wiser. No. I think for myself, I make my own choices, I choose whart I want to learn and whart I want to experience. I won't allow people who judge me based on whart they know on the surface and of whom are so opinionated, mentally ruin me.


2012 Resolution.

1) Keep mind strong.
2) Focus.
3) Continue practicing common courtesy.
4) Achieve 3.5 CGPA.
5) Be less defensive.
6) Accept critic and learn from it.
7) Find more new things to do and learn!
8) Refrain from being pessimistic. Optimism is the new black!
9) Be more friendly, responsible, considerate and patient.
10) Be a better person in every way.


CHALLENGE ACCEPTED!

Need to organize and clear my mind.

A few things I need to get off my chest:

1) I was truly unhappy about being elected as leader for short semester. Truly. I did not want any responsibility and nao that I have it, I feel this immense pressure to do well even when I have no confidence in myself, whatsoever. I honestly think that I fail as a leader and I am not good enough. It's difficult for me to achieve an A let alone lead a group into that direction and having them expect me to lead them towards passing with flying colours. I don't know if I can do it and I apologize in advance if your grades are not to your liking or do not satisfy you. I can promise you that I will be trying my very best and I hope whatever I do is enough.



2) I am amazingly neutral about my results, despite the fact that my CGPA dropped by 0.1 ... someone decided to share a small part of the SABD handbook on our group on FB (for whart ridiculous reason, purpose or intention, I have no idea) but if I were to graduate tomorrow, I would at least be graduating as a second upper class graduate, but by the very skin of my teeth, no doubt about that. I think I should just maintain good grades, keep trying for that 3.5, even though it seems to be a near to impossible task for me.

3) I will try my best to be better in my studies next semester, I promise. I know I will find the drive and motivation to do so after my holidays. I just can't convince myself that I will be better and stronger at this very moment. Give me some time. I need rest. Seriously.

4) Next year onwards, I will refocus. I will not listen to negative remarks that will only take me off course and off my game. I will not compare myself to others but I will only focus on improving on myself. Never too old to learn new tricks!

5) Next year onwards, I will make more effort to learn new things. I will try not to cheat my way through my work. I will make an effort to accept and listen to others' opinions and ask for help when I need it. I will ask people about things I do not know and I will not be ashamed of it. I will learn to admit when I am wrong or when I am incapable of finishing a task. I will not be affected by people who immediately judge me based on my personality, looks or actions. I will forgive and forget.

6) Next year onwards, I will be less pessimistic, punctual and learn to be more humble.

7) I will commit to you, my studies and my goals.

8) I will mentally prepare myself for working as an intern in 2013.

9) In my attempt to make myself feel better, I am teaching myself to look at things at a different perspective, starting with my results. Even though my grades are merely average this semester, I have to point out that my group of friends and I DID do A LOT for last sem, and most of them did WAY WAY WAY better than me + had curricular activities that they could proudly add onto their portfolio! So I'm proud to say that we are a pretty awesome group of students. We're not the "by-the-book" type, which many have mentioned is not whart you want to be when branching out into the real world of work. I mean c'mon, my grades are pretty okay AND I did juggle 2 awesome installations during sem4. Gotta give me (and my fellow friends) props for that yo. AND we appeared in the newspapers! That's something to be proud of right? Haha.

10) I need a new look for 2012. Dual tone hair and more piercings? Hahaha.

I can officially tick "Vacation in Cape Town" off my blorg bucket list

... because I bloody went to Cape Town last week! xD It was so amazing! Despite the fact that my mother was stressful, I couldn't have been happier to be in Cape Town, South Arica ahhh! Especially when revisiting all the the places I use to go to as a kid! Couldn't be happier.

The weather is always better in Cape Town. It made me happy to wake up (very early every day btw ho ho) to the view of Table Mountain outside my bedroom window. To be able to have the need to sun tan without feeling like a sweaty pig after being under the sun for 5 seconds. To watch the clouds change shape every few minutes because of the awesome and cooling wind. To drive on the road without having to be kiasu like in Malaysia, and to actually have proper driving etiquette! To eat the most delicious food EVAH. To be complimented by friendly strangers (I love how friendly everyone is!). To visit all the places my family and I use to go to. <3 So nostalgic! I MISS CAPE TOWN ALREADY. ):

Here are just a few of the gorgeous photos I managed to take when I was in Cape Town. :) I'm planning on making a video too but I've been busy after returning home and I haven't found the right song for the video yet. Will edit soon (I hope).















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I started my short semester yesterday. I suppose I'm grateful to have pretty fun projects and pretty awesome group mates to work with. Blessed and lucky I am, I must say. We technically have to do measured drawings again but for a warehouse next to boss's firm and the GSC in Summit (which I must say is totally a disgusting excuse for a cinema). But we learn a lot and experience new things. Just today, we explored the cinemas and could conclude that the construction of GSC is rubbish. Hahaha!

Gonna get a drink and head to bed. So fucking tired.