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Some random update or something ...

2012-01-27T18:45:00.005+08:00

This week was spent playing and playing and playing. I didn't get any work done (though I'm already like 80% done with the reports but due to procrastination ~) and instead, I allowed myself to go out with all my kawans and have FUN.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR to all who celebrate it and HAPPY HOLIDAYS to all my classmates (2 months of FREEDOM AHHHH!). I hope you guys have been playing as much as I have this week! ~(^o^)~

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So, I spent 2 nights at Jas's place and experienced my very first YEE SANG. It was ... interesting. Haha! Though I'm not a fan of the violently mixed cold vegetables, but it was exciting, making a mess and trying something new; especially with one of my best friend's family. Wakaka! I'm the Melayu daughter they've always wanted ~

I've also become use to working out again! HOORAAAAAAAYYY! My muscles have stopped aching after the first attempt at jogging. FYI, I can still jog for a half an hour straight so THAT AIN'T TOO BAD. But my muscles were burning like donkey shit right after. Hahaha! Made the mistake of forgetting to stretch before going for a jog. I feel fitter though! And when I was at Jas's, Jas, Nadirah and I worked out A LOT. Walked around Sierramas and stalked many pretty houses, went to the gym and stuff. Those two have been doing this for ages. I've only just joined them in their work out routine. Hahaha! I don't care how far Jas's place is, I'mma self invite myself and use her gym. LOL!

AJA AJA HWAITING! I WILL BECOME FIT AND TONED AGAIN BEFORE SEMESTER 5 BEGINS! YES!

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So anyway, next week, I'll be going to Bangkok with Ivy and her boyfriend for 5 days and 4 nights. Hoping to catch up on some shopping, try fried bugs and see some things that can only be seen in Bangkok *shakes le eyebrows*. Looking forward to this mini vacation. I CAN'T WAIT! Mama needs a Thai massage hoooowahhhhhhhhh!

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To be perfectly honest, I don't know how I will handle you being away for almost two months. I will be so sad, I can't even imagine. But I will suck it up and be a coohl bitch about it because it makes you happy to be back home where you want to be. I rather you be happy and cheerful there than be moody and lonely here. Spend your days back home wisely! Drive around, meet friends, go out, eat everything you want and miss, before you have to come back here for Sem5 in April. I'll probably miss you more than you'll miss me but that's okay ~ I'll keep myself distracted, ALL DAY ERR'DAY (if possible).

Currently have The Civil Wars on repeat! One of those songs you just need to listen to when you feel emo. HAR HAR. It's good (Y)(Y)!

Just because ...

2012-01-23T03:05:00.003+08:00

1) I like men.

2) Listening and accepting criticism. I'm working on it.

3) Jared Leto.

4) 3 years ago, a man, his car and a bouquet of flowers.

5) Awkward beyond description. Self-doubt is common. Confidence is shaky. Again, working on it.

6) They know who they are.

7) One of my books about Gaudi.

8) Arrogance.

9) Those who do not judge me, no matter how many mistakes I've made. Those who listen to my problems and are willing to throw in their two cents. Those who seek my help when they wish to help themselves.

10) Cats.

11) Milly.

12) I couldn't tolerate it.

13) Loiter around KLCC with Qissu and Nadhir.

14) Facing my fears, winning a PAM competition, experiencing new things.

15) Hipster.

16) Without You, Don't Let Go, Tomorrow, Domino.

17) :)

18) Smile, confidence, a strong point of view.

19) Cats, tortoise, fish.

20) Chocolate, watermelon, honeydew.

21) Cape Town.

22) I can't remember but it's usually about my overbearing personality.

23) Subang Jaya, Malaysia. Cape Town, South Africa.

24) ... you feed me.

25) Study in Scotland. Get my degree. Get my Masters. Decide on whether or not to do my PhD. Obtain Ar.

26) Motivation, or lack thereof.

27) Will be attending Qissu's nephew's baby shower.

28) An experienced architect who will gradually enter the field of lecturing and educating.

29) When I was 9 and I shat in my pants.

30) Crooked teeth, stretch marks.

31) Rebuild this goddamn house!

32) Has hair as thick as Rapunzel's, a smile as perfect as Eugene's, intelligent and experienced in his field of studies and work, opinionated, confident, proud, caring.

33) The constant need to try something new perhaps? Or the sheer lust for learning new things.

34) Spitting in public.

35) 30STM, Linkin Park, Tokio Hotel (No, I am not a fan), Neon Trees. I can't remember who else.

36) I've answered this already.

37) Ugh. 2 of each sex. Haha.

38) A picnic by the beach, watching the sunset.

39) Drawing, reports, speaking in front of an audience, being tall, shopping, eating, caring for people, shooting things with my cameras.

40) Almost hitting a cat on the highway, my brother crushing a squirrel with the X-trail, my father running over Syawal (a kitten we once owned), Milly getting hit by a car and dying.

41) I would like to live in this house, but with more space in my room for my studio table, more shelves for my books, a toilet and a walk-in wardrobe.

42) I think it was probably my mom saying she's proud of me (for once in her life).

43) No because I haven't achieve the CGPA that I want, I haven't proved myself worthy of being a good student/daughter, and I haven't tried something new this year.

44) The fan above me, spinning violently.

45) We're okay.

46) I HAVE ANSWERED TOO THIS QUESTIONS GODDAMNIT.

47) That I will be forgotten and unworthy of your attention.

48) 3.5 CGPA. Scholarship. More clothes and bags. A bright future ahead.

49) We're okay too. The generation gap is challenging though.

50) Loud.

51) Maybe I should have gone to Scotland.

52) Telling someone to have fun ~

53) I don't hate anything about myself. But I dislike that sometimes, I am so easily demotivated and unenthusiastic. I need to strengthen and discipline my mind again.

54) Big arms, shiny hair, perfect smile.

55) Whatever that could possibly insult or offend me, which is like, I don't really know whart.

56) Insufficient knowledge on other races, other cultures, manners and sex education.

Happy 21st to my darlings!

2012-01-22T01:06:00.003+08:00

January seems to be a very popular month for birthdays (and a month in which I am constantly burning a hole in my precious wallet) but it's all good because the birthdays are of my closest and best friends. :)

Happy 21st birthday to my dearest Jaslynn Tham Munn Yi! <3 You're now 21 and graduating from One Academy soon. In the near future, you'll be leaving (me D:) for San Francisco to continue on in pursuing your career as a Graphics Illustrator. No matter whart happens, you know you have your wife by your side, regardless of whether we are at opposite ends of the earth. Whenever you need me, I'll be there for you! :D The best of luck in everything you do and I hope you become the great artist that you are longing to be (though I know you will since you've got the MAD SKILLZ). Love you forever! <3 To embarrass you, I will immortalize the Powerpoint slide your father made of your face from 1991 - 2012 (wakakaka!)

The photo when Jas was 11 is THE BEST OF THE BEST. Epic, like a BAUSSSSS!

I bought Jas matching Ipanema flip flops. :D

NIK FADZREEN HANI! Happy 21st birthday to you too sayang! :D You'll be in Bandung by the time you turn 21 so the least I could do is wish you here first. :) I know your studies (and the ahem laki) are important to you but please take care of yourself and your health first, especially while you're out of the country. As for ahem, you need to put yourself out there and reduce the shyness/ego. Hahaha! Be a man! Do the right thing! LOL! I'll always be here for you, if you need my help in anything at all, you know I'm here for you. :D Love you forever! Good luck with 4th Sem! Please don't fall drastically ill because you choose to neglect the need for a check up at the clinic, OKAY? <3

Tee hee. After a delicious Thai meal from Just Thai om nom nomz!

Simba and Yuan Li, I haven't seen you in donkey years and I'm waiting to celebrate with you clowns. Hahaha. Can't wait to see you guys! HAPPY TURNING 21 LE LION AND LE BEAR <3 Love you ladies too. :)

In memory of my beautiful cat, Milly

2012-01-18T23:32:00.004+08:00

I honestly cannot believe that Milly is gone. She has been with my family for 9 whole years. She was part of my family. She always made us happy when each of us saw her. We always screamed her name in a high pitch voice, all excited and spastic. Even my 62 year old dad would squeal when seeing Milly, seriously. She could instantly make everyone smile, just by being the happy, fat cat that she is.

Now, when I reach home after a long day and have some time to relax on the couch, I won't see her sleeping on the grandfather chair, the refrigerator, on my projects, on the mail desk, on the dining table, on the magazines underneath the dining table, or the sofa anymore. I feel so unhappy, like a part of me just shattered into pieces.

I'm still so angry at the imbecile that hit her with a car. I still don't understand how someone could be driving fast in a housing area or is blind enough to not see a huge cat crossing the road, especially when you should know that this neighbourhood has MANY cats that are being taken care of at many different houses!

If you go outside, out to the tarred road, you can see the Milly's blood stains on the road. You can see that she was hit right in the middle of the bloody fucking road. This shows that the person who hit my cat is a blind motherfucker who didn't even care enough to stop and help my cat. Just drove off after hitting her, IN THE FACE, possibly snapping her neck and leaving her to die a painful death. I'm so angry at you, you useless, heartless cunt.

My anger and frustration aside, I really hope that Milly had the happiest time with us. She was truly a loving, intelligent and beautiful cat. I really miss you Milly. I regret that the last time I saw you was only for that brief moment after coming back home and was too tired to stay up. I'm sorry I didn't get to hug you or brush your fur before you were accidentally taken away from us. I really really really miss you. And I wish you were still with us. :'( You're with Allah nao, and I hope you're a happy cat in the after life.

Me, disturbing Milly when she was trynna sleep. :)

She loved the camera <3

Cat at peace. <3

You see. She slept on my projects. She didn't only sleep on the drawings, she also slept on my models. That's how much she loved my work.

On the couch. <3

I was probably bothering her again.

Sleeping on my drawings again.

Her favourite spot. She always slept on my father's grandfather chair. She would even steal the seat away from my parents. Sigh. I love you so much Milly. I'm really very sad that you're gone. I miss you.
Rest in peace, my beautiful cat, Milly.2003 - 2012

Random rant

2012-01-11T23:32:00.003+08:00

Holidays are just around the corner and I feel as though I'm the only one looking forward to doing nothing architecture related. Many of my friends are planning on working in firms, either continuing in the firm that their working in now or moving to another that's offering positions. Am I the only one who's looking forward to trying new things? Instead of facing CAD drawings and reorganizing my thoughts and words to compose reports?

I wanna play! I wanna master my Nikon, take pretty photos of sceneries and invest in a second-hand wide angle lens. I wanna explore new places, find some new things to learn and experience! I wanna DRAW. I feel like I haven't drawn with my own hand for ages! So dependent on the computer that the functions of my hand loses it's purpose. I wanna travel, if possible. It doesn't have to be far but I just want to see something new. I wanna be there for my friends, help them if they need it, talk to them. I wanna stay at home and watch television without worrying about finishing an assignment or a report. I really don't feel like being pressured to finish someone else's work or given the responsibility to complete something I'm not interested in. I NEED TO REFRESH LE BRAIN.

I kinda feel left out when my friends are talking about working in the firm to gain more experience, but it's okay. I'm already planning to work for over a year before I leave to Strathclyde so I'm not at a loss. Haha. After listening to numerous opinions about how we should be pursuing our career, I've come to the conclusion that, I'm just gonna live my life the I want to. I shan't be influenced by others. ^_^

After the short semester ends, I will play. For the 2 months of freedom I will;

1) Make it a point to jog at least twice a week. Better if I jog every day but lets start off with twice a week for now. Must be healthier! I haz a spare tire wtf.
2) Learn to cook more food! I know how to cook pastas and all but lets try some recipes that require roasting or baking.
3) Invest in a good wide-angle lens and a tripod. Take many beautiful photos! Maybe follow Qissu's personal projects - 30 Days of Photography
4) Draw more. I wanna learn better ways to sketch and maybe learn to use more mediums. Either that or start colouring again. I MISS COLOUR PENCILS. ):
5) EXPLORE. It can be absolutely anything! :D
6) Go to concerts! It's the only time I can without feeling guilty about sacrificing time for assignments. Wakaka.

If I get bored, maybe I'll work somewhere. But not a firm. Perhaps the kindergarten near my house again? :D Or some freelance photography? Maybe some photoshop work? Or sell sketchbooks? Hahaha. Anything to refresh le brain.

On a different note, I forgot to show off this article in some random local magazine. Tis a short article about our installation! Wakaka. Yeah, it's totally random, being in an interior design magazine and all, but whatever. We still got published! xD Happy happy joy joy.

#confessions

2012-01-07T00:03:00.006+08:00

So I blindly confessed something on Twitter. I shall quote myself; "I don't think I will be an architect in the future, but probably an awesome lecturer #confessions"".

So basically, I don't actually know if I am capable of being an architect in the future. I could try ... ? But it seems difficult (and it is judging by the amount of exams and paper work that needs to be submitted during part III). I can see myself lecturing in universities though (following my father's foot steps perhaps?). Wakaka! I don't mind being a lecturer, but I have to make sure I have a title. Dr.? I would have to do my PhD. Ar.? Another round of studying by-laws and memorizing. @_@

I'm not sure. Of course I'm aiming to be an architect. I would love to design a few structures and proudly call them my own. But I wonder if I could take up such responsibilities of, you know, signing contracts to allow construction to commence and if something were to go wrong, I would be jeopardizing the lives of millions and if someone dies, well, you're pretty much to blame - the murderer. Could I? I don't know if I have that much confidence in myself. Haha. But I could give it a shot?

I would love to be a lecturer. A lecturer's life seems so fun and happy (primary examples of happy lecturers would be Mr. Kid and Dr. Veronica of course). But I will definitely gain some experience first before actually pursuing lecturing. I need my Masters to do that, after all.

My plan in the near future (2013), is to work for a year and a half before applying for Strathclyde. I've learnt through out this short period of time being with Ar. Gerard Sim that working and gaining experience is so critical as a student who's striving to be an architect. I've learnt so much from my boss in the one month that I've worked with him, compared to a whole year of studying in Taylor's! We finally understand how to draw proper drawing conventions. At every meeting, we learn proper architectural language.

For example;

1) Apron - concrete slab surrounding building.
2) Purlin - Member in a roof - support on top of beams which holds up the roof.
3) Curb - An edging used in public toilets (when there is a construction mistake) to avoid water from escaping the area - can create a pool (lol).

We also learnt how to waterproof a public toilet! HAHA. And my boss keeps emphasizing on construction problems because something ALWAYS goes wrong during construction. You have to be smart, observant and strict.

TAYLOR'S DOESN'T TEACH US THAT. HOOWHY?! Haha. It makes me question the syllabus in my own university hmmm.

Enough ranting! Time to display photos of the environment in which my lovely group members and I are forced to work in ~

The projection room in Level 4. I think 90% of the time, Summit GSC plays local films, and not the good kind. Like the crappy art direction, and crappy acting kind. Yergh. But we got a glimpse of Sherlock Holmes! I just remember Watson's wife holding a gun. DUM DUM DUM.
Fun fact; the round plates behind the slanting cuboid holds up the rolls of film. The film is being projected by the slanting cuboid (which is a projector larh lol) which uses a zenon light that shines through the pot hole and onto the screen. The cuboid on the farthest right is the amplifier that transmit the sounds from the film strips - the film strips have sensors on them that transfer information from the projector into the amplifier into the speakers of the cinema halls. Ahhhhh~!
This is us underneath THX Hall 7. The steel structures hold up the stage and stuff. Alex proclaimed himself as Gandalf because of his awesome wizardry (a phone that lights up). My boss called him Harry Potter and shouted "LUMOS!" when he saw a photo of Alex proudly holding his Samsung Galaxy SII and was shining it towards the camera lolz.
A lot of DUST DUST DUST. FYI, the air duct is underneath this stage and air-flows through the air duct, into this dusty space and INTO THE THX HALL. So TECHNICALLY, when you watch a movie in this rather large and "impressive" THX hall, you generously contribute to the slow failure of your lungs.
The abandoned halls! During the construction of Summit USJ, Malaysia was facing an economic downturn and there was some sort of recession (I don't really know, I was 10 during this period of time) and so, these halls were abandoned and left untouched because the management couldn't afford to develop it further. But nao, tis 2012 and a new team has stepped in (a new team meaning my boss and us, sorta, as his measuring and drafting slaves).

My boss taught us about how intermediate walls between cinemas are built and whart materials are used to sound proof each hall. When he saw this photo, he said "This is not right. Ahh nevermind. I'm gonna tear it down anyway". Oh the joy of measuring everything, drawing it up and having the existing structure torn down. :'D Brings us joy. Truly. At least we got to see how they made the walls for the current cinema. Pfft, quality so low liao. Cheapskates.

This is just a photo to show ... nay ... PROVE, how comfortable and totally shameless the employees of GSC Summit are around us.

Okay that's all.

P.S.

To dearest Mr. Chan who is currently residing in the heavens above, I hope you are in peace up there! I feel sad that I didn't get to see you before you had left us. ): But it's okay! You're in a happier place nao. I'll always remember you. I hope you brought the wooden giraffe I got you! (:

With all the respect and love in the world,
your most hyper and enthusiastic art student,
Sarah Ahmad.

Rest in peace.

My first post in 2012

2012-01-02T00:45:00.004+08:00

Stole this from Qissu's blorg. (:

What did you do in 2011 that you’d never done before?
Bungee jump, sang in front of an audience, eat smelly tofu, zorbing, joined a fashion show.

Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I really don't remember if I made a new years resolution last year, and I couldn't find any from my blorg for 2011. But I did remember telling myself to achieve a 3.5 CGPA, in which is still in process unfortunately. ):

Did anyone close to you give birth?
Naw.

Did anyone close to you die?
No, thank goodness.

What countries did you visit?
Scotland, England, Taiwan, Thailand, South Africa.

What dates from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
I don't remember numbers very well (goldfish memory) but I remember events! MAPFest in Malacca was one of my favourite trips ever. And I'll never forget my bungee jumping experience. Oh and 6 Sept.

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Winning the PAM Booth contest with my beloved college mates and conquering my fears.

What was your biggest failure?
CGPA dropping and bad attitude (I wasn't nice to many people and I apologize). )8

Did you suffer illness or injury?
Common cold I suppose.

What was the best thing you bought?
My Canon digital camera because I bought it with my own money and it's a life saver for when I am a lazy fuck and refuse to lug around my Nikon.

Whose behaviour merited celebration?
All my BFFs. They all have different pains but they handled it like true adults.

Where did most of your money go?
Probably on my projects/gadgets/clothes.

What were you really, really, really excited about?
Moving to Scotland in 2012. But then I changed my mind and decided to move there during my Masters.

What song will always remind you of 2011?
David Guetta feat. Usher - Without You.

Compared to this time last year, are you
happier or sadder? Happier.
bigger or smaller? Bigger. I haz a tummy ):
richer or poorer? Poorer in every way.

What do you wish you’d done more of?
Be a better friend and daughter, be more polite, conquered more fears.

What do you wish you’d done less of?
PMS.

Did you fall in love in 2011?
Yes I did.

What was your favourite TV programme?
Glee, GA, Misfits (all time fav FRIENDS & Will&Grace).

Do you hate/ dislike anyone now that you didn’t hate/ dislike this time last year?
Don't know. I'm trying my best not to fill my mind with hatred.

What was the best book you read?
Probably a comic book or something architectural.

What was your greatest musical discovery?
Mike Posner (wth haha).

What did you want and get?
A trip to Cape Town :)

What did you want and not get?
3.5 CGPA.

What was your favourite film of this year?
Thor/Captain America.

What did you do on your birthday?
Celebrated with sayangs :)

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011?
Karerful.

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Cameron Sinclair, Ng Seksan, Kevin Mark Low, Pitupong.

What political issue stirred you the most?
Bersih?

Who did you miss?
My BFFs, all day err'day.

Tell us valuable life lessons you learned in 2011.
Treat others the way you want to be treated.
Be responsible.
Never judge a book by it's cover, NEVER.

Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"I worry, I weigh three times my body. I worry, I throw my fear around. But this morning, there's a calm I can't explain. The rock candy's melted only diamonds now remain".

What was your favourite moment of the year?
Falling in love with you, with architecture, with everything.

What was your least favourite moment of the year?
Probably every time I ever cried. Those were my breaking points.

Where were you when 2011 began?
Measured drawings.

Who were you with?
Kiwi, Akham Malegh and the seniors. :D

Where will you be when 2011 ends?
It's already ended. Regardless I was at Chacha's place.

Who will you be with when 2011 ends?
I was with my favourite people. :)

What was your favourite month of 2011?
In between Sept and Nov. I had you, the Dreamcatcher Project, my birthday, and the Corallien Project. :)

What was the worst lie someone told you in 2011?
"You're so pretty". Please, don't lie to me.

Did you treat somebody badly in 2011?
Yes. Once again, I apologize.

Did somebody treat you badly in 2011?
Yeap.

How much money did you spend in 2011?
I shan't answer this monstrosity of a question!

How did you do in studies/ work this year?
I could do better.

If you could go back in time to any moment of 2011 and change what?
How bout no.

What are your plans for 2012?
Graduate 3rd year of degree please and thank you.

Happy 2012!

Since the start of 2011 I've

2011-12-28T17:08:00.001+08:00

Gotten a new piercing

Dyed my hair.

Ended a relationship.

Started a new relationship.

Been on a long car/bus journey.

Passed an exam.

Met someone who’s now an important part of my life.

Cried on someone’s shoulder.

Had a massive fight with a boy/girlfriend.

Received flowers.

Had a Valentine.

Written a letter using pen & paper.

Gone to see a therapist.

Been prescribed medication by a doctor.

Read a really good book.

Gone to the zoo.

Spent too much money on unnecessary things.

Traveled by train.

Spent the day out in the sun getting a tan.

Slammed a door out of frustration.

Had an anxiety attack.

Babysat for a friend’s child.

Had a BBQ.

Gone to the fair.

Gone bowling.

Seen a film at the cinema in 3D.

Gone on a date.

Been the only sober one on a night out.

Helped someone home after they had been drinking.

Stayed up all night.

Talked on the phone for over two hours.

Supported someone who’d received bad news.

Watched some kind of live sporting event.

Read an entire book in one day.

Bought a DVD the day it was released.

Eaten McDonald’s more than four times in a single week.

Cried as a result of exam stress.

Met some incredible new people.

Gone to great parties.

Fallen backwards off a chair.

Lost/Broken my glasses.

Worn a watch for the first time in years.

Cried over someone in my past.

Spent hours aimlessly browsing the internet.

Thrown up.

Cried over a film.

Gone out of my way to avoid an ex-boy/girlfriend.

Fought with someone in public.

Been in a relationship for a year or longer.

Cried in front of someone I adore.

Fell in love with the same person every single day.

Lost one of my closest friends.

2012 is this weekend oh wow

2011-12-26T14:07:00.004+08:00

2011 is coming to an end. Lets list down some memories from this whole year (off the top of my head);

1) Cape Town
2) Taiwan
3) The Corallien Project
4) The Dreamcatcher Project
5) Bungee jumping
6) Zorbing
7) Drinking to my limit
8) Eco Fashion Show
9) Singing in front of an audience
10) Broga Hill
11) Tanah Rata
12) 30STM
13) Glasgow
14) Baking a rainbow cake for the first time for waifu

2011 Achievements;
1) Won a PAM competition - Booth Competition.
2) Overcame fear of singing in front of a crowd - Studio Acoustic.
3) Overcame fear of falling from a frightening height - bungee jumping.
4) Appeared in 2 newspapers!
5) Winning the poster competition thinggy (I lost my cheap certificate lolz)

Hmm when you list it down, it ain't that much. Hahaha! Good enough for one year.

At this very moment, I feel very uneasy. I have no idea why. Thinking too much I suppose. I assume I've been away from civilization for far too long. It's taking a toll on my judgement.

I have a feeling that my mind is being somehow manipulated. I really don't like feeling this way. I refuse to allow a second party to alter my mindset; just because you're older or think you're wiser. No. I think for myself, I make my own choices, I choose whart I want to learn and whart I want to experience. I won't allow people who judge me based on whart they know on the surface and of whom are so opinionated, mentally ruin me.

2012 Resolution.

1) Keep mind strong.
2) Focus.
3) Continue practicing common courtesy.
4) Achieve 3.5 CGPA.
5) Be less defensive.
6) Accept critic and learn from it.
7) Find more new things to do and learn!
8) Refrain from being pessimistic. Optimism is the new black!
9) Be more friendly, responsible, considerate and patient.
10) Be a better person in every way.

CHALLENGE ACCEPTED!

Need to organize and clear my mind.

2011-12-20T00:38:00.006+08:00

A few things I need to get off my chest:

1) I was truly unhappy about being elected as leader for short semester. Truly. I did not want any responsibility and nao that I have it, I feel this immense pressure to do well even when I have no confidence in myself, whatsoever. I honestly think that I fail as a leader and I am not good enough. It's difficult for me to achieve an A let alone lead a group into that direction and having them expect me to lead them towards passing with flying colours. I don't know if I can do it and I apologize in advance if your grades are not to your liking or do not satisfy you. I can promise you that I will be trying my very best and I hope whatever I do is enough.

2) I am amazingly neutral about my results, despite the fact that my CGPA dropped by 0.1 ... someone decided to share a small part of the SABD handbook on our group on FB (for whart ridiculous reason, purpose or intention, I have no idea) but if I were to graduate tomorrow, I would at least be graduating as a second upper class graduate, but by the very skin of my teeth, no doubt about that. I think I should just maintain good grades, keep trying for that 3.5, even though it seems to be a near to impossible task for me.

3) I will try my best to be better in my studies next semester, I promise. I know I will find the drive and motivation to do so after my holidays. I just can't convince myself that I will be better and stronger at this very moment. Give me some time. I need rest. Seriously.

4) Next year onwards, I will refocus. I will not listen to negative remarks that will only take me off course and off my game. I will not compare myself to others but I will only focus on improving on myself. Never too old to learn new tricks!

5) Next year onwards, I will make more effort to learn new things. I will try not to cheat my way through my work. I will make an effort to accept and listen to others' opinions and ask for help when I need it. I will ask people about things I do not know and I will not be ashamed of it. I will learn to admit when I am wrong or when I am incapable of finishing a task. I will not be affected by people who immediately judge me based on my personality, looks or actions. I will forgive and forget.

6) Next year onwards, I will be less pessimistic, punctual and learn to be more humble.

7) I will commit to you, my studies and my goals.

8) I will mentally prepare myself for working as an intern in 2013.

9) In my attempt to make myself feel better, I am teaching myself to look at things at a different perspective, starting with my results. Even though my grades are merely average this semester, I have to point out that my group of friends and I DID do A LOT for last sem, and most of them did WAY WAY WAY better than me + had curricular activities that they could proudly add onto their portfolio! So I'm proud to say that we are a pretty awesome group of students. We're not the "by-the-book" type, which many have mentioned is not whart you want to be when branching out into the real world of work. I mean c'mon, my grades are pretty okay AND I did juggle 2 awesome installations during sem4. Gotta give me (and my fellow friends) props for that yo. AND we appeared in the newspapers! That's something to be proud of right? Haha.

10) I need a new look for 2012. Dual tone hair and more piercings? Hahaha.

I can officially tick "Vacation in Cape Town" off my blorg bucket list

2011-12-16T00:36:00.002+08:00

... because I bloody went to Cape Town last week! xD It was so amazing! Despite the fact that my mother was stressful, I couldn't have been happier to be in Cape Town, South Arica ahhh! Especially when revisiting all the the places I use to go to as a kid! Couldn't be happier.

The weather is always better in Cape Town. It made me happy to wake up (very early every day btw ho ho) to the view of Table Mountain outside my bedroom window. To be able to have the need to sun tan without feeling like a sweaty pig after being under the sun for 5 seconds. To watch the clouds change shape every few minutes because of the awesome and cooling wind. To drive on the road without having to be kiasu like in Malaysia, and to actually have proper driving etiquette! To eat the most delicious food EVAH. To be complimented by friendly strangers (I love how friendly everyone is!). To visit all the places my family and I use to go to. <3 So nostalgic! I MISS CAPE TOWN ALREADY. ):

Here are just a few of the gorgeous photos I managed to take when I was in Cape Town. :) I'm planning on making a video too but I've been busy after returning home and I haven't found the right song for the video yet. Will edit soon (I hope).

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I started my short semester yesterday. I suppose I'm grateful to have pretty fun projects and pretty awesome group mates to work with. Blessed and lucky I am, I must say. We technically have to do measured drawings again but for a warehouse next to boss's firm and the GSC in Summit (which I must say is totally a disgusting excuse for a cinema). But we learn a lot and experience new things. Just today, we explored the cinemas and could conclude that the construction of GSC is rubbish. Hahaha!

Gonna get a drink and head to bed. So fucking tired.

Just another ordinary day

2011-11-30T18:34:00.005+08:00

You know ... appearing in 2 newspapers and all ...

Yup ... Nothing new mmhmmm ~

95% done with course work

2011-11-28T15:29:00.003+08:00

I am THAT much closer to reaching the finish line. T^T I just have to finish my folios and take the stupid papers on Friday and Semester 4 is over and done with! ヽ(´▽`)/

Here are my boards.

Relatively simple. Nothing too over the top. I can't tell whether they're good but they're simple and can be easily read. Haha. Black background makes everything look sexy hence the colour palette.

I honestly don't know if I fit EVERY criteria that is needed. I have all content ... I think?

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Emphasis on design - I made it as clear as a can with very minimal words (if cannot understand after reading my big A1 boards then I dunno whart to say).

Clarity - I think it's clear enough ...

Neatness - I kept it simple so I would like to believe that my boards are neat ...

Presentation - LOL I won't be there for presentation but my boards will speak for itself ... I hope (ﾟдﾟ)

Site suitability - I have a site strategy! Which is ... I DUNNO.

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1) FLOOR PLANS OF DEVELOPMENT X 3 @ 1:100 (Ermmm ... I have design development and my proper plans ...)

2) ELEVATIONS X 4, SECTIONS X 2 @ 1:100, IN CONTEXT (I have 4 of each which should be easily read!)

3) SKETCH 3D MODEL (DIGITAL OR PHYSICAL), IN CONTEXT (I HAVE BOTH)

4) SITE PLAN IN CONTEXT @ 1:150, INCLUDING EGRESS / INGRESS INFO (I have a site plan with ingress and egress but I don't think an A1 of this is necessary! Whart a waste of space and paper).

5) EXPLODED AXONOMETRIC SHOWING COMPONENTS OF EXISTING CHALET @ 1:100 (Yeap got it ... but dunno about scale TEEHEE).

6) PROCESS SKETCHES FROM CONCEPT TO CURRENT. (Got it in design development)

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I'm happy if I can get a B for this project. For real. I hope this is enough. The fact that I won't be there to present is already making me panic (but the thought of being in Cape Town during my presentation kind of overpowers my paranoia) TEEHEE.

KAY GOTTA FINISH MY FOLIOZ.

5 Days in my cave

2011-11-26T02:20:00.004+08:00

I locked myself in my room for 5 days to make sure I would finish most of my Studio work. So far, I've finished my model, my renderings and my drawings (except for site plan. Not sure whether to use my old one or make a rendered site plan from my Sketchup model). I need to finish my chalet axonometric drawings, my presentation boards and folio by this Sunday so that I can print everything by Monday!

So here are some renderings that I did. Photoshopped as much as I can to make my n00b-ish renderings look decent. Teehee.

Exterior perspective view of le warehouse.

Timber panel roof and facade.

View into the training space.

Display area.

Loading and storage area.

My model in which I am very proud of because it took me forever to finish. Legs, arms, neck, back ALL ARE FUCKING SORE. But it's for the sake of getting a decent grade.

I'm not gonna be presenting for my external because I'm heading to Cape Town before the actualy date of my final presentation SOOOOO I just have to submit early and let my work speak for itself. Gah. I'm still learning how to make good presentation boards. The only good one I've ever made was in Semester 1 and back then, I'm pretty sure I was being spoon fed on how to design a presentation board. T^T I need to do some research aiks.

The presentation board should be able to tell your story, your concept, express your designs and ideas. And the fact that I won't be there to explain my work, like I'm use to doing, this will be challenging. This could be the reason why I haven't been getting good grades(?). Suck-ish boards. Whart a sudden realization. @_@ If I nail this one, maybe I can get a B+ for Studio this semester? Lets hope so.

Took a nice break today. All I did was photoshop my rendered images, then went on a date with Ivy. Now I'm just bumming in front of the television. Hmmm. Need to make more progress so I can finish by Sunday (or more like Monday morning).

Okay that's all guu bai.

Our short retreat to Malacca

2011-11-21T04:03:00.022+08:00

My kawanz and I had an installation to do for the MAP Fest in Malacca. Yeap, for the second time! :D And they expect us to be a part of their event every year nao which is very exciting. Anyway, so yeah, after a week of HELL and non-stop submissions, we finally finished up all our assignments early and headed to Malacca, with style mind you! Our lecturer managed to get a massive bus for us (with 3 seats per row! Imagine the space!), and there were only 7 of us in the group (originally it was 14 though but half of the group got engulfed by assignments). We traveled in luxury babeh! Haha.

As we arrived Malacca, we were dropped off at one of the cutest hotels ever, Hotel Puri! It's so humble and comfy. The rooms were pretty good too! Hooray for my lecturer and his generosity (and cunning way of getting sponsorship from Taylor's LOLLERZ).We headed to St. Paul's Church, with all the material and equipment needed to make our installation. We honestly hadn't properly planned out whart to do nor did we feel stressed or pressured about not having a proper plan. I don't know why. Maybe it's cause we've already gone through a week of hell that when we arrived in Malacca, nothing seemed worse. Our minds were already set on relaxation + food, installation came after. Haha!

We had already begun making ropes out of plastic in the bus, so we just had to continue whatever it was we were doing + spray paint the bicycle rims white. We had to figure out how to hang everything from the huge tree outside the church. I gave myself the job of identifying which branch should be used as a support for the rims, which resulted to neck cramps, seeing as my neck was at a 90 degree angle most of the time.

We worked like normal, once again, emphasizing on no stress (which we found so weird because we were taking our own sweet time and nothing seemed to be bothering us). We became one of the main attractions, inviting people to make wishes and being in many, MANY photos taken by tourists from all over. Some fellas from India and Algeria even asked for photos WITH us, which was like ... mmmkay then? LOL.

Us, walking to site.
The view from our site. :)

The whole of Friday was mostly spent on the installation. Work continued on til about 4pm the next day (no, we did not work continuously. We slept and ate most of the time), and once it was done, we were pretty satisfied. The installation impressed a lot of people which we take pride in (seeing as we only made it in one day). Not bad for something we didn't properly plan on (gotta give us credit larh. We had like truckloads of assignments before this. November is a hectic month!). Here are photos of a few of the wishes made that day.

And this is just us, posing with our installation.

After we were done, we had baba nyonya laksa, cendol and then we attended the opening ceremony, which was similar to last year's, with many boring speeches. Luckily for the beautiful contemporary dance performance, the highlight of the ceremony + the teh o ais and finger foods! After that, we decided to go play at the nearby playground before heading back to the site to take night shots of the installation. I assume this was our attempt at being kids again, since we've all turned 20 (and the giant monkey bars got us all excited! They don't have dangerous crap like this in K.L. anymore!).

The trip continued on to be AWESOME. A lot of playing around and being silly. Friday night, we camwhored on the streets as though we owned the place. We so gangsta liddat! Most of the photos turned out pretty mafia-like, as though we were in some "My Wife is a Gangster" movie. W00T!

As the hours passed, we slept like babies, played games, ate EVERYTHING, stoned, jalan-jalan cari makan, randomly bought all kinds of rubbish from Jonker Street, stoned, ate Nadeje Cake, saw a cute shophouse that was a restoration project by Badan Warisan, checked out some adorable cafes around our hotel area, stoned, walked walked talked talked, meditated in front of one of Map Fest's featured artist's installation, STONED, burnt our skin walking everywhere under the sun, play play jump talk skip hop leap pounce whatever it is students with no responsibilities (temporarily) would do. :D

Here are some pretty photos!

Over all, this trip was whart I needed. Stressing myself out just to meet deadlines is making me go bald. Thank goodness for this project. (:

For your viewing pleasure! Made another video. Hope you like!

P.S. I'm using the blogger image uploaded as a way of protesting against Photobucket. Stupid thing won't let me install the plug-in, nao every time I try to upload photos, it crashes my Google Chrome. >:(

Am I missing something here?

2011-11-14T03:38:00.004+08:00

Why is everyone saying that they can't finish their work on time? Am I seriously missing something? Did I forget to do something?

SUBMISSION REQUIREMENTS (25%, INTERNAL, 15 NOV):
(note : emphasis on design, clarity, neatness, site response)

[x] FLOOR PLANS OF DEVELOPMENT X 3 @ 1:100 (1 A1)
[x] ELEVATIONS X 4, SECTIONS X 2 @ 1:100, IN CONTEXT (1 A1)
[x] SKETCH 3D MODEL (DIGITAL OR PHYSICAL), IN CONTEXT (1 A1 IF DIGITAL)
[x] SITE PLAN IN CONTEXT @ 1:150, INCLUDING EGRESS / INGRESS INFO (1 A1)
[sorta in my sketchbook lol] PROCESS SKETCHES FROM CONCEPT TO CURRENT. (1 A1)

Yeah, I have everything. So why am I panicking about feeling like I'm missing something? O.O I suppose I've successfully followed the schedule I made for myself? Right? Huh? LOL.

Plans for after I wake up;
Monday, print out Studio drawings and theories essay.
Submit theories essay.
List down all the concept crap I invented a few weeks back (recollection of bullshittery is at its utmost importance at this period of time).
Collect some materials for MapFest!

Tuesday will be the day we finish the B. Structures assignment (I hope).

Wednesday will be the day we begin our amazing, totally out of the ordinary installation that we would have stupendously create with God-like speed!

Thursday, departure to Malacca and the emerging of our inner-spider-monkeys!

Friday, opening ceremony for MapFest and some awesome relaxation time that will span onto the next day in which will include activities such as eating baba nyonya laksa, eating 1000 layer cake, watching performances by contemporary artists, being mega tourists around Malacca (even though we've been there more times than we can count) and anything involving the act of stoning. This mini vacation is much needed by us. We would go insane without proper rest.

Study week - the week I unleash my inner kiasu and spend 7 days straight doing Studio. Ultimate goal - kick-start studio on Sunday, aim is to finish by Thursday. Friday - Sunday will be my portfolio weekend. Monday to Thursday - revision and practice for B. Structures and B. Services exam. Wednesday will be my final submission and external presentation for Studio.

And then on the 4th is OFF TO CAPE TOWNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTZZZZZZ!

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Here are rendered images of the warehouse I'm designing for Studio. The colours are hilarious hahaha but I'm trying to reference other buildings that have similar tones of autumny goodness. I'm not sure if I'm satisfied by my work but I've accepted it and I don't hate it. Haha. It's leaning towards a positive emotion, yes.

Oh look, trees. Haha. I've made a giant leap by adding a proper site context. Hooray!

I have no idea why there is a human wearing a red shirt in the first photo. I specifically told Sketchup to make my human purely white in colour but Sketchup can be a bitch and this is it's way of getting back at me for swearing at it over a million times.

I like the last image. If I Photoshopped it even more, I could make it look like an actual photo (but I am lazy and the lorry looks like a Lego toy).

These images look clear but they are not. Hahaha! The originals are pixelated like crazy, but I can't do anything about it. My laptops aren't built for high resolution rendering. Should really talk to father about getting a PC, seeing as I'm not leaving Malaysia for another 2+ years.

Anyway, good luck to everyone! It's gonna be a hell of a week.

Mentally and physically drained

2011-11-10T21:54:00.006+08:00

I don't know if it's the weather or if I've been working a little too much but I am tired. So tired. Sometimes I wish I didn't have to get out of bed at all. I just wanna sleep without any alarms going off, phone calls, parents knocking on my door to wake me up. I just want to sleep for 12 - 15 hours and wake up feeling good about sleeping away half of my day. But unfortunately, that will not happen. Not until this semester ends.

I'm pretty sure I'm mentally drained. I took a nap today and this is a rare occasion because I don't allow myself to nap in the evening. Totally not coohl. After waking up, I still felt like death with legs. After eating whatever I could find, I found the energy to lift my ass off the couch and continue work. Need to finish Theories essay by tonight and email it to Dr. Usama! Argh. I screwed up my draft. If I don't get A for Theories then this semester will be my worse semester to date.

Here's some of the crap I submitted recently. Barely any modelling work this semester. SUCKS BALLSACK.

Okay I'm pretty happy with this layout but I assume my marks are low because Dr. Usama is strict with marks and all.

Here's my crap of a submission for B. Services.

I am truly ashamed to call it my own.

So far, the funnest subject this semester; because there's like, NO STRESS. <3

To be honest, I'll be happy if I just get Bs for most of my subjects (except for F&C. If I get a B for that, I might just shoot someone). I know I've screwed up my Studio since this semester's standards are fucking difficult to reach. I have no hope for B. Services because I feel like I just cincai did whatever and submitted my work. B. Structures, I'll be lucky to get a C. Feels like Add Maths all over again. =_= Like I said, this semester sucks ballsack. Fucking frustrating and beyond stressful. I AM IN DIRE NEED OF A VACATION.

I can't wait to fly off to South Africa. CAPE TOWNNNNN! <3 I don't care if I'll be travelling alone with my mom. Being in Cape Town will buffer out all her nagging and complaints. I can't wait to photograph EVERYTHING. SHOP. EAT BILTONG AND CHEESE POPCORN. Omg I miss Cape Town so much. I'm working hard to finish my work early so that I can hand in everything on an earlier date. External is on the 6th of December but I have to submit on the 30th of November because I'm flying off on the 4th. Whatever it takes for me to have a great time in Cape Town. <3

Another awesome thing to look forward to is that after short semester, I have 2 months of holiday. 2 BLOODY MONTHS OF FREEDOM. CAN YOU HEAR THE HALLELUJAH CHOIR SINGING. OMFG. I can't wait I can't wait I can't wait!

Procrastination

2011-10-29T23:13:00.005+08:00

Since my week began with a bang of a birthday celebration, I hadn't had the time (or bothered to make the time) to actually do work (because I figured since this is the only week of rest we will ever get until we end this semester, what the heck?! Lets dig my own grave!), so I've been having fun with friends and Pokey! :D

Photos this week were taken purely by my Canon IXUS 220HS. My dad borrowed my Nikon so I challenged myself with my digital camera. I think there are ways of capturing gorgeous photos with a small camera! As Kai from DigitalRev once said, "The equipment does not define the photographer" or somethin' cheesey liddat.

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Monday night, I went to Jas's place for a belated birthday celebration. The woman couldn't make it to the fail surprise 2.0 a couple of days before, so I decided to invade her home. I was fed generously by wife and I'm very grateful for the truckloads of delicious food she forced down my throat! She also brought me to this charming place in which I shan't identify (to avoid hipsters from discovering it HAHAHA) in Giza. The place served the nyummiest green tea drinks and molten chocolate cake! Om nom nom.

SHO CUTE. :3

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This week, I went to Ikea 3 times. HAHA! I had to help Pokey get stuff for his home-improvement project. His room, in actual fact, looks a lot nicer and cozier, now that the fluorescent light isn't needed and also because of the brand new Ikea furniture he so happily chose and purchased. Haha. He made a working station for me so that I don't have to squeeze beside him the next time I attempt to work at his place. Yay! Sankyuuu.

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I had a photography date with waifu in Putrajaya. We actually planned on shooting the sunset but the weather has been chaotic lately so, we decided to get Gong Cha and shoot anything we find pretty in Putrajaya instead. It was a rather lazy shoot because we are lazy people. Haha! But we managed to get some good shots.

This is one of the suspension bridges in Putrajaya. It's atually really beautiful at night, with the LED lights and Calatrava inspired wires. It's quite the contrary during the day, unfortunately.

I love this photo because it shows how well we bluetooth facial expressions to each other. Hahaha! We always have photos of us doing the same expression without us realizing it! Like MAGIC.

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Yesterday morning, a bunch of us literally withstood pain to climb up Broga Hill to catch the sunrise. Yvonne Tan vomitted and Yuan Li stopped about 4 times to catch her breath and eat candy. Haha! But we managed to reach the top! Though I feel the consequences of not working out or maintaining my stamina, deep in my bum and thighs. Ohhh the pain! I feel sore everywhere. I didn't expect it to be difficult. I'm sure there are worse hills though but this one was really quite difficult to climb! It was steep and slippery. We were lucky that the weather was kind to us. It was cooling, dry and we could see all the stars before the sun rose! Yes, twas difficult to climb that hill, but it was worth it! I haven't done anything as adventurous in a while. And the view that when we reached the top was utterly BREATH-TAKING. Mega heavenly (literally), as though we were floating on clouds!

Oh the sunrise! <3 I think, for the passed 3 years, I've probably seen the sun rise not more than 10 times. Haha! Off the top of my head, during Redang when I woke up early to see the sun rise, TWO DAYS in a row; and the sunrise when I was driving to campus before our SABD Orientation last February. Sunrises are very special to me, since I rarely see it. HAHA! And this hike up Broga Hill has got to be one of the best experiences of my life.

Hiking up a hill with a bunch of crazy friends! Whart better way to spend our morning?

My most jiwang photo! Asked Melgan to help me take a photo of me as Karate Kid, with the most majestic scenery EVER. I'm so much coohler than Jaden Smith or Daniel Larusso! HAHAHA! Can't believe we were that high up! You can see how far the town is from this photo! Freakin' awesome.

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Here is a random photo of the youngest addition to the family! Lucy Goosey.

BACK TO WORK.

Twen(teen)

2011-10-23T15:25:00.007+08:00

Anyone who has been in at least a 10m radius of me knows that I haven't been having the best week. The start of my week began as a mundane and depressing start to boring classes and assignments, and soon led to me being emotional and angry at everything (mostly myself because I haven't been doing well in my studies; in my own standards that is). Felt like jumping into the lake many many times, to float with the ducks and potential drown myself in my own sorrows.

But as the week reach an end, my emotions and mood took a nice 180 flip because, well, easiest way to say it is that, I have the best and sweetest friends in the world! HAHA. Aww. To be honest, I kept forgetting that my birthday was this month; I guess that's how emotional I was about my studies. @_@

Haha. It was a great weekend because the 2 surprises that my friends planned, failed. HAHA! Only because I'm clueless and I keep catching them trynna surprise me. I love you guys. :D Thanks for making my birthday very special. I'm no longer a teen! I've sashayed into the 20s club proudly and with swag babeh! Hehe.

The best thing about being the birthday girl is being fed all kinds of food! Haha. Everyone was kind enough to bring me to pretty places and feed me. xD

Dinner at Delicious with mah architorture mates! <3
This was the surprise that almost succeeded, until I saw YL and Simby at the car park. MWAHAHA. <3 Thanks my loves, for cheering me up! The day before, I was ready to jump into the lake, seriously. And thank you for the gorgeous Holga Tim135. :D I love it so much! LOVE YOU GUYZ TO DA MAX DOT COM. And thank you Mashi, for being there for me and layan-ing me when I was emo. :) And for being the spy for literally everyone. HAHA. <3 Love you. :D

Lunch with Ms. Ming Yee at the cutest restaurant, EVER (shall refrain from exposing the name of this restaurant; my attempt at concealing the identity of such an awesome eating place. Don't want the hipsters to find out! Right Ivy? LOL).

This is the entrance of the restaurant! I think only architecture students would find something so old and antique-ish coohl because Ivy wasn't as excited as I was about the doors. HAHA.

LOVE. <3

Thank you for making time for me on my birthday! And for the yummy and different (super different) lunch. Thank you for the beautiful necklace too! Now I can show people this pendant whenever they ask me whart my name is lol. LUBBZ YOU.

This was my second time getting sprayed with fake snow on my birthday. Haha! My hair kembang cause of you guys! Sigh.

Lump of fake snow, courtesy of Qissusu.

Steamboat for dinner! :D

Balloons make everything pretty!

Thanks waifu for staying up passed your bed time to watch Spirited Away with me. Really means a lot to me that you're actually watching out for me when I iz down. :D The little things are the BEST GIFTS. <3 Thanks Farhan for teman-ing your waifu to watch Spirited Away with me. HAHA! Thanks Nikki for taking time off work to come see me on my birthday <3 Thanks Mir for being the person to distract me (by driving me around UM like a n00b) from the fail surprise 2.0 HAHA! I love you guys very much. :3

A marvelous way to turn 20 indeed!

P.S. You guys have given me back my semangat! I will try to do my best for the rest of this semester! AJA AJA HWAITING!

The stress has finally got me.

2011-10-18T20:31:00.003+08:00

You know, when you have one of those days (weeks or months) where nothing seems to go right and everything negative seems to take over everything positive that has recently happened to your life? Yes, I'm having those days (more like weeks).

I seriously feel like I've lost all enthusiasm to work hard in this course. So whart if I don't get 3.5? So whart if I don't reach my goals? What's the point of trying and striving for my goals of being an "all-rounder" when all I ever get is a grade that's average or being labelled as an average student? I don't want to be average. I want to be one of the best. I don't want to be second place. But why can't I seem to achieve my goals? WHY? B+? Really? Why can't I climb out of that B+ hole of depression?

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So what's the point? What's the point of trying? Someone please tell me. So that I have a reason to continue living my life in this stressful environment.

I don't know anymore.

How to save money ...

2011-10-17T02:07:00.005+08:00

October has been a hell of an expensive month. There is not one day without me realizing that I'm running low on cash. My phone will be barred anytime soon, petrol will for sure run low, birthdays are coming up and I have no money to contribute ... Unbelievable ...

How to save/gain money;

1) Stop eating out - need to try to eat less in campus. Campus food is expensive. If I'm desperate, just buy food from 7E. Or else eat at home.

2) Shopping diet.

3) Sell off some crap I don't need to gain some extra money.

4) As for birthdays ... I don't know ... I think I'll make my friends birthday presents. Because I'm broke like that. :D

I guess I have to just spend less. Have some sort of daily budget so I can at least last 5 days with RM50. @_@ Goodbye Chillis, goodbye fast food, goodbye Backofen. I think I'll have lunch and dinner at home everyday to make life easier.

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On a different note, I haven't felt this way in a long time. :) <3

ULTIMATE DEBAUCHERY

2011-10-15T17:59:00.004+08:00

Okay the title is uncalled for but whatever. So anyway, my weekend began very interestingly.

I spent the night at Pokey's place in Suriamas after interim as a reward for having almost 2 weeks worth of mega stress! The next morning, I got a Whatsapp from Jojo saying that my car was clamped and I was obviously like "... the fuck is this shit?!". So I went to confront the guards and I have nothing to say other than they are unfair morons. Lets explain in detail whart happened;-

1) The night before, I drove to Suriamas and registered. I told the old man who was on shift that I was staying overnight. I swear, I said I was staying overnight. He rudely answered back saying that there are rules and you can stay overnight in Suriamas for 5 days maximum per month. Okay fine, whatever.

2) The next morning, my car gets clamped. I confront the guards and they say that under the registration, the stupid old man wrote my registration under "Visitor" and I literally went ballistic because that was that old fart's mistake and at that time, they were accusing me of lying. The fuck bitch if I was at the wrong I wouldn't even bother arguing!

3) The afternoon guards told me to confront the night guard who wrote my registration. I was so pissed of the the water-works began running, I swear to God I was so friggin' angry haha.

4) 9pm, I confronted the bastard and he decides to change the story, saying that the last time I visited I broke the rules and shit and AGAIN, I went ballistic because now this asshole is putting words in my mouth, lying and creating stories and suddenly trynna change the story and trynna hide is fucking idiotic mistake. I can't handle it when someone accuses me of something I didn't do and suddenly I have to pay for it?! RM50 is a lot!

So anyway, I let my car stay there for another night because I thought I would confront the management but I'm not like my mother. I don't keep grudges for long (unfortunately) so the next day I just paid the fine (in which Pokey sponsored D:), lectured the guards and drove off. But I was polite to make them feel bad in which they did, since they apologized to me like a hundred times lol.

The night before, went to Loudspeaker to karaoke like crazy mafakers. >:D "BABY PLEASE DON'T GOOOOOOOOOOOOO~" as Chacha and Eng Wei were leaving hahahaha! And the night continued on with a lot of Absolut. Oh ... you know ~ Hahaha.

Anyway, today, Simba had to send YL to campus and me to Suriamas to collect my car. As we were on our way on LDP, an elderly woman was crossing the road (LDP ROAD) while there were like hundreds of cars speeding! I immediately told Simba to stop and ask the woman to get in the car. And so we did. We literally stopped traffic, screamed AUNTIEEEEE and asked her to enter the car so that we can send her back to safety.

Apparently, the auntie said that she was at Centrepoint, a woman approached her and asked her and other elderly people to join some church at SS4D/1 (which is behind Giant somewhere I think). So fr some reason, the auntie decided to follow her and the stranger's driver. Otw to God knows where, the auntie decided to tell them that she doesn't wanna go and wants to buy groceries or something. Then, they left her at Taman Mayang where we found her on the highway. =_= Bastards!

The auntie isn't local, she's from Taiping. Her husband is working outstation and so is her son. Obviously she wouldn't know her way back to her house in BU12. @_@ The poor thing. I just wanna know if there really IS a church or if the people who approached the auntie are psychotic and like to kidnap random old women!

So anyway, we dropped her off at her house and she's now safe and sound at home (we hope). Fiuhhh.

Going out with Mir in a bit! Should go wash my hair. D:<

Here's the documentary we did on Street Food in Taiwan. :D

If you're too lazy to watch the first video, at least watch this Bubble Tea commercial my friends and I made. >:D Enjoy.

BUSY BUSY BUSY

2011-10-09T02:24:00.002+08:00

Please watch! I made this because I have itchy fingers and I put my work on hold just to satisfy my desire to make a video. Haha.

If there are actual humans who bother updating themselves with my social (not-so-much) life, then you should know that I've been busy with assignments and The Corallien Project.

I can't explain the experience that we went through to get this project going and to actually succeed at building the installation. Hmmm. Yvonne Tan and I had to present to the PAM judges earlier. I don't wanna say that we've got this in the bag (because I'm not too sure if we hit the ball right outta the park with our informal presentation) but we have a good chance of winning. And if we win, well I guess no one would look down on the crazy, outrageous private-uni students. WHICH IS AWESOME. Hahaha!

In about 12 hours from now, we'll be heading to OU to find out who won. It may not be a big deal for many people but indeed, for me it is. It'll be awesome to have this installation in our portfolio, let alone a prize-winning installation! Makes my chances of getting a scholarship higher and networking will be so much easier haha.

Finger crossed and hope/pray for the best.

Overdue post of the century

2011-09-29T01:12:00.009+08:00

I typed this out in Willow last Sunday to compensate for not blorging regularly like I usually do haha!

"Seeing the massive gaps between each blorg entry, one would agree and understand that I am and have been extremely stressed out by assignments.

Highlights of my studies so far:-
- Accreditation this Monday and Tuesday (though it might be a lil depressing as I'm being accredited as an "average" student.) ;_;

- I've been chosen to be featured in the Taylor's prospectus yeahhhhh! That's a pretty good boost for my ego haha.

- Mr. Kid invited me and my usual gang to do another installation for a PAM competition which will be exhibited in OU or a week starting from the 4th of October so if anyone is reading this, please drop by! :D"

No. 1) Despite the fact that I was thrilled and utterly flattered to get chosen for the second time for accreditation, it was in fact, a waste of my time. I could have been doing more productive things like sleeping or working but I (and Chacha) took time off to attend this thing and all we did was slug around outside the studio and "stand-by". Bloody hell.

No. 2) Yeap. Prospectus y'all. I have something to show off after I go overseas. *shakes eyebrows*

No. 3) Progress for the installation = 0%. BLAME THE GODDAMN TECHNICAL REPORT MY GROUP AND I ARE WRITING. Wth. Stupid formats. Air-Conditioning systems alone take 54 pages of the report, NOT including drawings. Whaaart theee ... Our report will be an encyclopedia, seriously.

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The recent issue I've been facing;

I am unsure of whether I should fly off to the land of quilts next year. I went to a counselor in Taylor's and he (+ Ms. Connie) told me that going for third year would mean that I'll have to do everything by myself - application, credit transfer, folio submission bla bla. I'm also unsure of whether my credits are enough to exempt me from subjects that I've already taken that may be repeated there. @_@ I have to find out if my credits are enough.

Now that I think about it, leaving during my masters would save my parents alotta money. They seem to be making ends meet to send their youngest daughter to study a professional degree. I feel so bad that I'm still taking away their retirement time. My mom told me to decide my next move because it is, after all, my own future. @_@ If I stay, I would get to graduate with my friends and continue networking here at least. But I have doubts about Taylor's because they use us as guinea pigs, sucking us dry of money, instead of giving us the quality education we need. Maybe in Sem5 it might change ... ? I dunno.

But if I leave, I'll get to start in a new environment, live in a new place, make new friends ... hmmm. My mind was so set on leaving next August. But now, back to square one.

I'm pretty sure my sister is leaning towards me staying because she kept reminding me that I can graduate with my friends, that I would get to enjoy my newly renovated room and can apply for a scholarship for masters which would save my parents a lot of $$. She has a point there of course. I always felt sad about turning away from all that. Haha. I'M STUCK NOW. HMMM. If I stay, I would have 2 more semesters to try and improve my CGPA ... ? Hmmm.

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Okay. Enough ranting. Did you know that I recently went to Taiwan? Yeap! Haha. Taiwan was fun. I tried so many different types of food! It was unbelievable. Haha! Of course, you have to be flexible when it comes to trying food so I didn't mind eating the non-halal stuff. But strictly no pork (NO PORK OKAY *you know who you are*).

Anyway, Taiwan is actually really beautiful. Not something I expected though. I expected it to be like Tokyo or Shanghai, with all the LED lights and high-tech crap all over, but it wasn't. It was more humble than I thought. The buildings were old and covered with tiles ALL OVER. Such an interesting character to have as a city. And the highways are all so tall! Some were literally 5 storeys high!

Mmmm the sceneries in Taiwan, at every town we went to actually, were extremely extremely drop-dead gorgeous. <3 And the weather the whole time we were there was good. Sunny, bright and happy. Haha!

We arrived in Taipei in the evening if I remember correctly. Oh I forgot to mention. I think I don't have luck when it comes to technology and this luck disappears at particular times like during or before I am on a trip. Eg. Cameron Highlands trip, lost my phone. Bangkok trip, hard disk died on me. Taiwan trip, BB hardware problem. Coincidence? I THINK NOT. Anyway, after unloading our crap in the hotel, we headed out to the night market somewhere "near by". NEAR BY MY ASS. Haha! But it was fun walking around the city and getting lost.

ANTHONY NEELY! He's totally real and we totally met him at the market pfft.

This was an awesome, AWESOME dessert. Simple, milky and full of ice + fruit yum yum!

The next day, we went to a village up in the mountains. The bus driver is such a pro man! The roads were insanely narrow and steep! I have no idea how he got a double decker bus up those mountains but he deserves standing ovation. *stands and applauds alone*

Them pretty ladies of mine. <3

Walkin' around the town and trying every piece of free food offered to us. It was a very pretty town actually. So cute and coohling.

Obligatory camwhore photo while waiting for the rest to finish buying chocolates.

This was us, resting in front of a school after over an hour of walking up stairs and steep path ways. Such a nice place to chill.

Okay, walkin' back down.

The view from up there was great man. To live there and wake up every morning to such a view is such a blessing!

This was the smelly tofu place! SMELLY TOFU IS DISGUSTING. I mean, I tried it and tried to learn to like it, the way Melvin loves it (and he loves it with passion man), but oh God I just can't. The night before, I tried boiled smelly tofu and it smelled like shit, literally. Over at this town, I tried fried smelly tofu and it tasted like tong sampah in my mouth. For real. Not to my taste larh haha! But Melvin LOVES it.

Random big-headed dog.

Outside Taipei 101!

TAIPEI 101! The elevator up that thing was INSANE! 38 seconds from 5 floor to 88th floor. WHADDAFUCK! I convinced myself that the Taiwanese were just playing tricks on us and that the 88th floor was just like the 8th floor and the windows on that floor were just LCD screens showing us the view from the top floor. Hahaha! But alas, Taipei 101 is THAT advanced!

The view from the roof top of Taipei 101! This was proof enough that we were actually at the top of the building. HAR HAR.

We headed to another shopping area that I couldn't pronounce. Makan makan shop shop.

JAN GEUN SUK! I dunno why celebrities keep bumping into me. Guess I'm THAT popular. *flips hair*

Our tired faces. Fuhhh~

The next day, we headed to a town known for making ceramics or something liddat. Haha. We went to a Ceramics Museum!

But honestly, all we cared about was the architecture of the building instead of the ceramics. Stairgasm! I love these stairs! <3

There was this shop in town that sold vintage stuff and they sold these DIY cameras for RM75! SO CHEAP. I totally regret not getting one. T^T

On our way to the fishing village!

Eat, eat, eat iron egg egg egg.

We then headed to the hot springs! :D It was crowded but an interesting experiencing haha! I've never been into public hot springs so seeing uncles and aunties stretching and chilling in the pools was ... I dunno how to finish this sentence.

Shilin Night Market. The most crowded, noisy, narrow market I have ever been to. I've been to many markets but this is like a whole new experience on it's own! Haha! Will be doing a video assignment on it soon so if anyone is curious, you'll have to watch the video.

The non-makan area of Shilin Night Market.

Our last night there! Went out for drinks. (:

I had so much fun! It's always great to go on trips with my friends. More freedom to do anything we want. Anyway gonna KO! I HAVE STUDIO HOLY SHIT. Nothing to show ... T^T whatever larh.

FYI.
1) My BB is important. I have never missed the sound of Whatsapp THIS MUCH.

BLESS THIS POST

2011-09-08T21:58:00.009+08:00

Mega nerd-mode commencing! Read at your own risk!

I've experienced my second all-nighter ever, EVER, in my life! Luckily for me, I didn't malfunction and crash during my presentation, though I felt like fainting while I was standing.

We worked so hard, stayed up late (practically saw the sun rise and from our studio, watched as students raced to find parking as early as 7am), did not sleep, did not shower, grew pimples, developed smells that we did not know existed (haha eee) but Alhamdulillah, the presentation went well and our model was rather eye-catching. :D Got a lotta good compliments and stuff.

Thank goodness for my group and our (in a way) good combinations of ideas. The concept that we developed grew stronger through the design process (of bullshitting haha), we cleverly addressed the clients needs, material wise; I KNOW WE WERE GOOD because we stressed on that a lot hahaha ... etc etc. :)

Experience = hellish
Outcome = Rather satisfying because we got pretty good critics. Praying that our grades won't flop.

THE GREAT REVEAL!

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Okay. Something else I failed to jakun about on my blorg. A couple of weeks ago, I managed to get in contact with the people of KLCC (through my mother and her boss of course) and got my group and I an exclusive (haha whart) tour around KL Convention Centre, BEHIND THE SCENES! Amazing, AMAZING experience, getting to learn and observe things you never knew existed. It was beyond awesome also because it was friggin' KL Convention Centre and their services and systems are of the highest levels! Makes us realize how totally amazing humans can be (sometimes).

Here are some photos of the awesomeness that is KL Convention Centre and it's systems! xD

GENSET! SO FRIGGIN' HUGE! Imagine your car engine but blown up to like 10 times it's size!

This is a photo of one of the water tanks. Yes. Apparently the water supply for toilets and etc are stored in tanks which are in the WALLS of the building! WHART? Hahaha so awesome. This is an example of integrating systems with design.

How the water is being distributed! Everything so nicely labeled for you. :D

This is the central vacuum system. YEAH! KLCC has a massive vacuum in the middle of their building! HAHA. So coohl right? This means that they don't need to have those portable vacuum to clean. They just have to plug the tube thinggy into the vacuum valve and everything auto-starts. Haha!

This is the epic sprinkler system (or part of it). Look at the proportion of the pipes in comparison to Simba!

And THIS, is one of the biggest AHUs in the building! SO BESAR! Air-conditioning is IMPORTANT in KLCC.

Okay enough talking about my assignments! I jakun more about this than Raya. How sad. Anyway, this weekend will be hectic. Every night, I'll be having some dinner plans with many different people, I have presentations to finish and also a date to fit into the schedule. Haha! Hectic to da max. But loving the stress. HAHAHA! Whart am I? Masochistic? Maybe.

Btw, I did not expect this for Sem 4. I was totally glum after getting my Sem 3 results until I'm pretty sure, every ounce of enthusiasm that I had last semester was just flushed out. At the beginning of the semester, I felt lazy and unmotivated. I mean, last sem, I worked so hard. I did a very detailed model and presentation board, I did manual drawings but it was not good enough, obviously. So I lost all hope this sem and wonder why I would bother putting in effort if my efforts aren't even being acknowledged.

But because of this hellish experience that in a way, I loved so much, I'm up for the challenge. I'm up for the stress and for the (almost) sleepless nights (no more all-nighters full stop). I'm up for CRUNCH TIME 24/7. Haha. Besides, someone is encouraging me to try harder. Telling me that putting in effort is very much worth it. :D If at first you don't succeed, try and try again right?

OKAY ENOUGH GONNA TUMBLR NOW.

Selamat Hari Raya!

2011-08-31T02:06:00.001+08:00

Clarity

2011-08-23T16:44:00.006+08:00

To calm me down. A lil' dose of Cameron Mitchell.

I feel as though my semester started off pretty pessimistic. Or am I just feeling that now? Hahaha. Getting my results really put me in a schlump. I'm kind of slow now and lazy (it could also be because I'm fasting but I don't think that should be considered a reason to feel unmotivated and not enthusiastic). Whart's going on? :S

Many things have happened. Personal things. Good and bad. Somehow, I have a huge load off my shoulders right now which is an incredible relief. But that's the least of my worries. Regardless of whether I feel better about my decision, it's not making me enthusiastic towards work.

Luckily, there is a "beacon of hope" I would say. Hahaha. Making me feel a lil' better every day.

Had a bittersweet day today. I had about 3-4 hours of sleep, in which was constantly being interrupted by my upset stomache, nagging mother and soon, my alarm clocks. Haha. Got up, tried to make myself feel healthier (you know haha), then got ready for studio. Had to fight for parking, which always makes me cranky. The good thing is that Moe bought me a chocolate cake and that made me happy (: He's always so sweet to me ahaha. The day continued one with my group and I having discussions, making conclusions and coming up with a rough site model in which is totally out of scale haha. I then left campus without realizing that I forgot to drop off the school fees at the admin office (*facepalm*). So I had to turn back and look for parking again, at 2pm sigh. Felt rather bitchy and cranky about having to find parking again but luckily I did and soon after, left campus. While driving, I almost fell asleep HAHA. Came back home to my brother being my brother and my mom nagging. And now, I'm just not in the best of moods because I can't seem to nap.

That is my rant for today. Hehe.

You know who you are.

Will post because I haven't posted in a while

2011-08-14T18:31:00.003+08:00

My definition of a best friend;

1) One that I don't have to see or talk to every day but when we do see each other, it's like a volcano erupted and rainbows and nyan cats started spewing out violently. So I know, even if I study overseas for 10 years, when I come back and see them, it's like I never left.

2) One I am comfortable with; embarrassing moments is not embarrassing with them.

3) One I can complain to about anything. Listening is also important so we exchange rants and complaints all the time. :D

4) One I can confess anything to without being judged.

5) One I can seek advice from and I can actually follow the advice given. Not everyone has perfectly honest opinions. But they are always honest.

6) One I can laugh with about nothing. We could be laughing about the existence of air for all I care.

7) One that allows me to invade their home and it's never a problem. It's so normal that I can go through their refrigerator and steal all their food.

8) One who loves me. :D And I love them too. <3

Kay that's all. Thought I would be philosophical about the definition of a best friend, but I wasn't. Hahaha! It's just an opinion and it's off the top of my head.

UPDATE. I got a Blackberry. Hahaha! An early birthday present from my dad. :9 But whart ISN'T an early birthday present when I ask my dad to buy it just cause I want it kan? LOL! Hahaha! Actually, getting a BB makes contacting people a lot easier. So I can imagine studying overseas and contacting my parents for free because of the BBM service. Vicky said, "Smart phones bound to make you antisocial". On the contrary my dear Ridany, I seem to be so happening now with my BB. HAHAHAHA WTF. No larh. :9 It's true, it's become an extra limb! Adui. I've jumped on the smart phone bandwagon so I must be smart hehe.

My simple dreams

2011-08-05T15:54:00.003+08:00

1) To have a beautiful collection of cameras
2) To have a wall filled with colour pencils
3) To re-design the house that I live in
4) To graduate with flying colours
5) To have a walk in wardrobe
6) To have more than enough money to contribute to Architecture for Humanity
7) To be better at cooking
8) To be completely independent
9) To try and discover new things
10) To start a new chapter in Scotland
11) To be a well-known architect
12) To be given a chance to speak as a well-known architect
13) To have a book published about my work as a well-known architect
14) To not succumb to any form of peer pressure
15) To own a franchise of some sort
16) To travel
17) To master a camera and photograph the world

Time to go down in flames and I'm takin'' you ...

2011-07-28T19:46:00.006+08:00

I've always liked 30 Seconds to Mars but not as much as I love their videos! They make videos so tastefully and with so much quality.

This was the video that made it for me. Haha! I only download stuff when it's worth downloading and because of this epic-ness of a video, I joined the 30STM cult. I'm a bigger of a fan of their latest album, This is War, in comparison to the Beautiful Lie album but needless to say, they're both equally amazing.

Last Sunday, 30STM came down for MTV Worldstage. Last year it was Katy Perry and this year, 30STM! So far, the lineup for the passed 2 years have been beyond outstanding! xD The band is amazing live! Jared is like such a natural entertainer, making jokes, interacting with the fans, and some lucky bitches got called up on stage too (fuckers, I hate you all). When they performed Closer to the Edge, that definitely made my night. It was like Katy Perry singing Thinking of You. OUT OF THIS WORLD YO.

The other video I recorded isn't usable because I was jumping and screaming like a hyper head-less chicken hahaha!

I cut up my tie dye sleeveless top and drew on the 30STM logo in the spirit of the night! xD

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I have a few fears, not very severe ones but if I were to be in a situation in which I am trapped or falling from any height or an inch away from a sharp knife, my heart rate would reach that of critical conditions.

I overcame one of those fears yesterday! Those who know me well, know how I'm not afraid of heights or roller coasters or whatever seems commonly frightful to a normal human being, but I am dead afraid of falling. I think Qissu is the only one who actually knows this about me because she has the same fear (and we usually think of the most morbid ways of dying via falling HAR HAR).

So yesterday, I went to Sunway Lagoon (after years of not bothering to do so) with some of my mates! We totally underestimated the place because as expensive as it is, they upgraded all of the parks tremendously and it's actually quite fun to spend time there (funner if you have a bunch of friends like mine hehe).

So after going on water slides and roller coasters, I figured I was pumped enough to take on the mini challenge in which involves jumping off a pedestrian suspension bridge, hovering 22 (about 7+ storeys high) metres above a man made lake. 7 storeys doesn't seem like much, even I scoffed at the idea of 7 stories. "Pfft wth so low" I first said to myself when I heard of the bungee jump challenge in S. Lagoon. But it's a totally different experience imagining jumping off a bridge and actually jumping off a bridge. Must stay beside the statement of "never judge a book by it's cover" (even in terms of physicality!).

So there I was, excited, nervous, ready to vomit, standing at the edge of a swaying suspension bridge, ready to jump at the count of 5. That moment of doubt before jumping is whart I had to overcome and luckily, with a few long breaths and the numbing of the brain from thinking of backing outta of this, I DID!

On the way to the bungy jumping platform!

Tony is so hilarious! "SARAH! YOU'RE STILL ALIVE". Crazy ass. :9

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Holidays are ending, hell will break loose (in terms of stupid classes), Ramadhan is just around the corner which means Raya is too.

Sigh, I'm seriously not in the mood. I wish there was another 3 months of holidays, seriously. I feel like I still haven't tried enough new things. Oh well, life goes on. I'll have my time to rest next year.

I hope I can maintain my semangat for studies next semester. My spirit has been crushed multiple times but I hope I can rise above it and be the best that I can be. Reach that goal of having a CGPA that is at least 3.5. WORK HARDDD AND STUDY SMARTTT! Aja aja hwaiting!

25 July 1990

2011-07-19T21:48:00.007+08:00

I would like to dedicate this blorg post to my wife, Qistina Tajuddin, because on this very day, she is 2 decades and a year old! :D She has been my best friend for almost 2 decade of our lives.

This year has been a very difficult year for her, seeing as she has encountered some very emotional issues regarding health, studies and her family; and I truly apologize wife, for being so busy that I was not there for you. All I could do is send you messages of comfort hoping that that will brighten up your day. I'm thankful that you have your hubby to be a shoulder for you to cry on, as I failed be that shoulder during my course of studies. T^T

Besides that, I'm so happy you've stayed strong during difficult times and I'm praying you (and your family) continue to stay tough! I'm also glad that you have turned 21 which is like a gate way to adulthood (says my sister). :D Hehehe.

Seeing as this year is a special year, (traditionally, turning 21 is a big deal haha), I decided to give you more handmade gifts for your birthday :D Instead of just buying whart you like, I actually sat down and used my brain, practically cracking my skull haha. To show my utter lubb for you, wifu! Bwahaha. I'm sorry I'm not skillful enough to make a Nikon Camera cake but I hope that a marble rainboh cake (or whart we call, Predator cake LOL) would suffice. :9 I'm glad it made you happy because I honestly didn't think it would turn out well and it ended up look and tasting pretty awesome. Haha!

Here is the process of baking! I was a mess (because I'm not the greatest baker and I have no idea how to stay neat when baking) so I didn't take very good photos and I used my iTouch so the photos are grainy, but I shall still spread the lubb!

This so-called "step by step" image actually makes me look like such a professional! HAHA! But it's actually a lot messier and it was quite a warm day so I felt sticky after manually mixing everything in (I forgot that there actually is an electrical mixer in my house so I stirred everything by hand mwahaha). I neaten up the cake after it finished baking (that's why it looks pretty hehe) and then made icing (my sister helped me with icing so that is her gift to you wifu! Haha!).

I then met up with wifu for lunch on Saturday to catch up with her, seeing as we haven't seen each other in millenniums. She has exams next week so this was the only time I could see her. ^_^

Playing with King Kong's bellyh!

The rainboh cake, disguised by off-white butter icing! Hehe!

This gorgeous photo was taken by wifu herself! (: So gorgeous! Could be in a food magazine om nom nom!

Here are photos that we never fail to capture every year during raya! Haha! I just wish we had cameras back when we were toddlers so that we had photos from when we were 3 til now. :9 Nevertheless, our camwhoring tradition will continue, FOREVER!

2007

2008

2009

2010!

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY! LUBBS YOU WITH ALL THE HEARTZ AND AND RAINBOWS OF THE WORLD!

A Toys Story ...

2011-07-17T17:41:00.008+08:00

Dramas I have watched (to remind myself of how freakishly geeky I am);

1) The 1st Shop of Coffee Prince
2) Boys Over Flowers
3) You're Beautiful
4) Hana Yori Dango
5) Hana Yori Dango 2
6) Dream High
7) Beethoven Virus
8) Nodame Cantabile
9) Full House
10) Kimi Wa Petto
11) Gokusen

ANYWAY! It's about time I put some effort into a blorg post. Many things have happened recently. Some good, and some awful. Last week was a whole whirlwind of different emotions and experiences. I really don't know how I survived it haha.

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Lets start off with how I began the week. The SSSpool project began in Klang at Yvo's house on Monday. We had successfully transported all timber that we had collected ourselves to her place, and continued collecting and planning whart we would do on the installation days itself. So far, all we had was "something to climb and camwhore with". And for the whole week, that's whart we worked around. We didn't have a specific design but we improvised on the days we had to install the thing.

During this process, we encountered some problems. Transport being one of them, seeing as we have so many different types of timber, differing in length especially, but because we have parents of whom are willing to give us a helping hand, we solved the problem with a lorry and a very friendly uncle who was willing to sacrifice a few hours of his time to transport everything to PJ.

Other problems we encountered were very ... unexpected and also, in my opinion, immature. It was like we were back in high school and someone is inflicting some sort of irrelevant drama towards us. Instead of handling it like adults, it became juvenile and now, I think I may have lost a friend due to some unbelievably egocentric attitudes. I don't know. People make mistakes you know. You just have to be honest, apologize, forgive and forget. I want to leave it behind me because it really is a small matter that no one would dream of caring about but ... the other party doesn't feel the same. Oh well. Perhaps in the future, you will find this argument as a very stupid reason to keep us from being friends, because I find it stupid and very troublesome. MOVING ON THEN.

I suppose our rather odd looking spool that we have named, SSSpool/S to the power of 3/Syok Sendiri Spool was acceptable, structurally and aesthetically. I would've loved to have more frames and a giant golden one as the core attraction but seeing as we had no budget, we had to work with whart we had and whatever we could collect.

It looks fragile, but honestly, it's super strong and the stairs are like super sturdy. It's actually a super comfy sitting area hahaha! Especially when you sit on top! If I had it in my garden, I would sit and eat on the thinggy for hours!

See? Om nom nom eating mah kebab!

The stencils were a last minute decision but I think it gave the spool some character. (:

Reminding you to SMILE when you camwhore with the spool! (:

We stick together through thick and thin y'all! *jiwang*

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I decided to help my friend Keith out in a fashion event last week. I don't know why I was so willing to do it on my own but I don't regret it one bit. Haha. I drove all the way to Nilai from Klang (after doing work with the SSSpool group) and surprisingly did NOT get lost. Hahaha! Nilai is so far away omg. But at least now, I know how to drive there ... not that I have a reason to ever go there again anyway haha.

Anyway, yeah I took part in an event call the Eco Fashion Show 2011 in Inti International University as a runway model; and I had no experience whart so ever. Haha so since I had no experience, I drove to Nilai and night before to go for the Runway training - to practice actually walking in heels. I was surprisingly okay, but I have no stamina for heels man! I respect girls who wear them everyday! They must have leg muscles of steel! @@

The next day, we trained and practiced the choreography more, eventually got out thick "Black Swan" make up done, and then the event started! Hehe. It was fun. Honestly, such a fun and new experience. I'm glad I decided to go on my own.

The blonde man is Keith! Haha! He was so stressed. After everything was done, he cried from happiness/sadness, I oso dunno.

This collection was made by a designer/student named Stephy. Her theme was something related to foxes and furry animals, hence my furry paws. Haha.

My favourite collection! Made by a designer names Kimmy! Her theme was "Massacre". She had the most creative collection in my opinion, playing with tie dye, paint, textures of fabric and also a lot of layering! It was such a gorgeous and wearable collection!

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To top this week all off, results are out and ... I'm not very happy with it.

I don't know, I expected more I guess. I seriously worked so damn hard last semester and yet, I didn't achieve my goal of getting 4 A's. Is it THAT difficult to do well in this course? How frustrating =.= And getting a B+ for STUDIO? AGAIN? WHYYY! I worked SO hard on Studio. I only got 1 B during the whole design development process and the rest of my Studio assignments were ALL A- and I STILL can't get at least an A-?! WHY! I WORKED SO HARD. I'm like 0.07 AWAY FROM 3.5. WTF. =.= Sigh. I'm so tired of this. Do I have to exhaust myself to the point of fainting every day to achieve the grades that I want? Sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh. sihdkahdkauewakbdsajfgbajfaskdhkahdakdhakdhkadh.

Upset.

Anyway, I'm gonna eat buttered corn and watch Toys Story now.

Things I learned today ...

2011-07-16T22:38:00.006+08:00

1) Do not pay so much to go to a hipster haven. Boring, not worth it, waste of time, rather be at some butterfly park shooting butterflies.

2) You must/should always have a "close-distant" relationship with people of higher authority. Friends, but not too buddy-buddy. It causes very "high school-ish" drama that results to misunderstandings, and is immature and beyond irrelevant for anyone to experience and go through.

3) Do not trust other people and never depend on anyone but yourself.

4) Everyone is human. People make mistakes. The difficult thing is to forgive them, but you have to forgive anyway because having grudges ruins your personality, attitude and makes you age faster.

5) After dying your hair, you must go relax it or it will have the texture of hay.

6) It pays to be persistent even when you need or want the smallest of things.

7) Some people are inconsiderate and don't realize it, so you have to make them realize it by yourself.

8) An apology is an apology, regardless of whether it is via SMS, email, phone or face-to-face. The thing that you must consider is whether or not the apology is sincere.

9) Always put yourself in other peoples' shoes before even thinking of judging them. Empathize.

10) Always be polite. Even to people you hate.

I shall reflect upon my actions and think about these lessons for a bit. Then, watch some Korean dramas.

The start of something new

2011-07-10T17:28:00.008+08:00

I wanted to type out an inspirational title but when I typed out, "The start of ...", HSM came into mind. Hahaha!

Anyway, I'm on holiday right now and many things have been happening.

College mates and I are doing an installation for the upcoming Urbanscapes. So far, progress is slow hahaha but we know whart to do and we've collected enough material to make our installation AWEZUMZ! (Y)

Will reveal more when it's done but for now, here is a photo of me with a wrench.

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I typed this out when I was at the shed but didn't manage to finish it because I was distracted by Chua. Hahaha.

"Sekeping serendah is a perfect retreat when one is in dire need of a place to seclude oneself from the hustle and bustle of the city, of work, of assignments and of life. The charming timber shed that was so cleverly designed to be open and cooling, brings upon a very fresh and new experience to the world. Stepping into a space in which is exposed, combining private and public spaces and morphing it into one solitude of an environment. Once settled in, you'd realize that there's no form of modernized technology of this generation found anywhere, which implies that we are to invent entertainment. A nearby waterfall allows us to explore the nature of Serendah; with it being a small town, there isn't much to do but relax, eat, swim at a nearby waterfall, and with perfect company, the time passes by slowly as you bond with one another. Bliss."

Hahaha trynna be poetic but failed. It's hard to put the experience of the place into words. You just have to be there.

Time to be a nerdy archi-student. Highlights of the timber shed;

1) Open shower/toilet

I showered naked under trees haha this is Ivy's shower.

Ivy had to take a shit under the pitch black sky haha her toilet was more exposed than mine. Mine was sheltered xD The photo on the left is of my shower. VERY OPEN YO.

2) Naturally ventilated bedrooms & open ... EVERYTHING

Our living room was facing trees and the entrance of Sekeping Serendah (:

The room with louvres on the right was Ivy and Faridz's room. They didn't need fans at night hahaha. Mine and JY's was on the left. Comfy but still freezing LOL. I love this place.

Partitions for Ivy's bedroom haha extremely cooling yo. You can see our kitchen at the other end. It's like an awesome block of concrete made into a stove and table.

Seeing as Sekeping Serendah is a place to retreat to, the activities there consist of the extreme numbing of the brain - mega relaxation and ultimate stoning. No matter whart we did, be it eat, talk, sit, shit; we would end up happily staring blindly into space.

This was the nearby waterfall in which many locals and tourists come to gleefully swim in. Many of the uneducated folks would throw trash and cigarette buds into the water whilst we cussed in disgust as we witnessed such actions. But regardless, it was a nice and refreshing swim lol.

Us, cycling back to our temporary humble abode.

This was us preparing for jungle trekking.

This was Sekeping Serendah's version of jungle trekking haha! They even make jungle trekking easy man. Amazingly steep ramps!

My Mongolian head gear and his fake pregnant baby.

The swimming pool which resides at the end of the long journey through the jungle (konon). This was where Faridz kept acting like some homicidal pedophile when a little girl named Anna came to play at the shallow part of the pool.

Over all, it was a good, short trip. I made a new friend, wife and I caught up and told each other stories, discovered and experienced new things (especially the toilet) and the best is, RELAXED - the aim of the trip; accomplished.

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I was never one to care for politics because, lets face it, Malaysia isn't the strongest country from a political stand point, but after realizing how many Malaysians are willing to fight for clean and fair elections, showing how supportive and passionate they are for achieving whart is right for our country, really changes one's view of the whole situation. I never supported, nor was I against this Bersih rally but once I read all the articles, saw all the videos that fellow supporters posted all over the internet ... well, I guess it just changes a person.

I don't really understand whart the hell is wrong with our government. Whart is so difficult about having clean and fair elections and stopping corruption? Is it because they refuse to be honest with themselves and refuse to let the people of the country choose for whart is good and right for Malaysia? Whart is wrong with having a democratic protest? Doesn't that mean that we are a country of democracy? Then why is it illegal? Why do things like these seem so difficult for them to understand? It's one-dimensional and straightforward but they make it seem like it's more difficult than rocket science.

I believe in following whart is right and logical. The law is right and logical, so why not follow it?

The thing I hate most is seeing photos of people, let alone the elderly, getting injured from all the violence that the police have struck upon supporters! Have you no shame? Just because you're a policeman, does that mean you should throw away your respect for the elderly? Screaming at them and shoving them as though they're fugitives? Seriously, have you no shame? How dare you cowardly follow instructions of throwing harmful tear gas at peaceful supporters and hosing down hospitals when you yourselves can make a difference by fighting for whart's right? It's like none of the policemen have common sense. Yeah yeah, you're just doing your job, but this is much bigger than your job. This is fighting for the betterment of Malaysia.

Even though I didn't go for the rally, I sincerely support those who put in so much effort for Bersih. All the people from around the world and of course, those already in KL, gathering to fight for Malaysia, I salute you and respect you! So proud to be Malaysian right now.

(I typed this out like 2 hours ago when I was hyped up after reading articles about the rally haha I am more docile and less harsh now).

P.S. My hair is now red. Need to keep track of when and how many times I dye my hair haha.

2011-06-28T00:42:00.000+08:00

I don't know how to explain nor do I know how to contain this unbelievably harsh feelings of mine. I don't know how to tell the truth and I don't know how to change my mind. I don't want to. I don't like it but because of you ... well. And I dare not speak of this to anyone else, so here I am, typing very suspiciously about it. I honestly do not like it. I'm not that kind of person. And you don't seem to get it.

UH HUH OH YEAH

2011-06-25T19:32:00.004+08:00

I am proud to say, with all the happiness leaving my mind and voice right now, that I am done with all of my course work. Officially, done. I've finished everything except for my presentation on Monday but regardless, I have finished EVERYTHING that includes over using my brain and my hands. I'm so happy that I don't know whart to do. Usually on such a phenomenal occasion, I would go somewhere for shisha, to potentially dumb my brain down but I shouldn't, not until MONDAY. Heeeheeeeheeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

I can't believe I survived this semester. I'm so happy with myself. Now, lets just hope all my hard work has paid off. If my grades don't meet my expectations, I think I'll probably emo and rot in some hole.

This was the last page I made for my semester 3 portfolio.

This was the last model I made for Studio 3.

This was my last Bscience bullshit.

Anyway, can't wait for this semester to officially end. July is looking awesome, according to my calendar. Hehehe.

My crap animation hahaha

2011-06-19T13:26:00.006+08:00

My horrible video that will get me at least a B for Comp Apps (LETS HOPE SO. FINGERS CROSSED).

My plan for the rest of the semester

2011-06-18T16:54:00.006+08:00

In 10 days, I will be free from this stressful hell hole of a semester. In 10 days, I will have 30 days to enjoy the blissfulness of freedom. In 10 days, I will ensure myself a good grade for Studio because I have been working my ass off to make my model an epic model that is worthy to be proud of. In 10 days, SEMESTER 3 WILL OFFICIALLY END, and I am that much closer to leaving Malaysia.

Here is the schedule.

Today; I'm suppose to be doing my Bscience calculation shit for my Studio model (which is beyond troublesome because IT JUST IS *displays with pride thy middle finger*).

Tomorrow; Read and understand Bcons notes - take thorough notes! Also, should finish rendering 3Ds Max scenes by tomorrow but I think I'll give it until Wednesday (latest).

Monday; Fucking stupid 8am paper. =_= Study group for Bscience right after.

Tuesday; Attempt to understand Bscience calculations. Read everything theory related so that if I can't score for calculations, at least my essays will save my ass.

Wednesday; Fucking stupid of the stupid 8am BSCIENCE paper (Gawd). The rest of the day, finish Bscience shit for Studio (+ folio) and finish panels (MUST MUST).

Thursday; Print panels and finish 3Ds Max Animation + folio! - I think I should print ALL folio pages by Thursday!

Friday; Submission for Studio panels, 3Ds Max Animation and folio, Bscience folio.

Saturday; Final touches on Studio model.

Sunday; FUCKING REST YOU WORKAHOLIC.

Monday; Day of utter salvation. External Crit Session (in which I will KILL the lecturers of whom I will be presenting to) and then I AM DONE. *swears like a bitch*

The holidays will be FUN! Sekeping Serendah, Urbanscapes, MTV World Stage, Eco Fashion Show ... BRING IT ONNNNNNN!

2011-06-10T02:22:00.001+08:00

Ratchaprarop; A Bangkok Documentary .

Enjoy (:

Legs feel like jelly

2011-06-08T00:26:00.005+08:00

Abandoned my blorg for a bit there. Haha. I've been experiencing a lot of ups and downs lately - stress, pride, depression. I'm surprised I'm still standing strong at this moment.

I've been stressed lately with assignments (of course) since it's the last month of the semester, the assignments seem like they will never end or some shit liddat but I know they will and when they do, life will be sweet for a short period of time until the next semester tortures me again.

Anyway, recently finished up 1 major assignment and 1 final studio crit session. I have one last tutorial session for studio tomorrow then I'm on my own sigh. Anyway, the Bcons assignment went well. Could've gone better but, water under the bridge.

Super proud of the model, despite the flaws that not many people see haha. It was difficult to construct and took a lot of time but we managed and hopefully it's good enough to at least get us an A-.

My whole class (almost) and our gorgeous models! xD

Anyway, yesterday was our internal crit session and it was technically a silent crit where we display our presentation boards and the lecturers vandalize our perfectly printed boards and leave their remarks and grades on it. I'm extremely proud of myself because I'm the only one (apparently) who got an A- in class. WTF hahaha omg fucking stoked. Finally something good happened to me!

These are my simple boards. Happy happy (:

But happy things come to an end when suddenly your heart is crushed by the most unforgettable of all dilemmas in the world. The quotation for my HD's data recovery arrived that night and ... it costs an arm and a leg to recover 3 years of my hardwork. I don't have that type of money and I don't want to ask my mom or dad to pay for a severe problem that was potentially caused by me without me knowing, so whart do I do?

I need to make sacrifices. And whart do I sacrifice? The only thing I could at this very moment of desperation ... my DSLR. ): Makes me feel so sad. Regardless of it being a Nikon, I really love it, but ... there's no choice. I need the money. I'm trying to sell off whatever I can, actually, but I don't know if it'll be enough sigh. Hope for the best I guess. )8

So here I am now ... on the couch ... thinking of whart to do. Especially with the personal financial crisis I'm currently facing ... sigh.

OH WELL.

Hope for the best.

Of Tom Yam and SHOPPING!

2011-05-23T00:38:00.004+08:00

After suffering from a pretty severe depression (which has almost disappeared), I left KL on a study trip (not really haha) to Bangkok, Thailand! I've been there before but back then, I wasn't as feminine nor did I wear pretty things like dresses, necklaces and stuff (which was a huge waste, now that I think about it *facepalm*). Kinda like how I went to Japan when I was 11 but I hadn't discovered anime yet at the time so I went there without any knowledge or need to buy merchandise and shit *facepalm again*. So this time for the Bangkok trip, I actually fulfilled a lot of things including shopping, eating tom yam, shopping, experiencing the anthem at the train station, shopping, re-study the streets of Bangkok (sorta hehe) and SHOPPING!

Of course, I didn't ONLY shop. Haha. The first time I went to Bangkok was with my siblings and mom. It's a whole different experience when you go overseas with family compared to with friends - what I mean is, with family, everything is too organized and restricted (especially if you travel with my mom) but with friends, it's mostly free and easy and you get to try new things! I prefer travelling with friends cause it's less stressful. With my mom, on the other hand, every hair on my body could drop off; seriously. LOL!

So anyway, the sole purpose of the trip is to record the cultures of a particular street. We got the commercial street but due to riots, we had to change to a street nearer to our hotel which was like wtf so boring. But whatever we recorded will be put into our video; we won't let such good material go to waste! :D Hahaha.

I'm having problems coming up with a theme for our documentary. I have a rough idea of whart should be inside the vid - focus more on the culture and the standard of living in Bangkok and that particular street we had to analyze but whart should be the main theme? Survival? Modernization of the Thai Culture? Adaptation to the Increasingly Expensive Life of this Generation? The only thing I can think about is relating the survival to their culture. Like how, no matter how poor they are, they find a way to work hard and earn money but at the same time, stay true to their country, religion and culture. It's actually very inspiring. I have a recording of the train station anthem. It's really awesome >:D

Hahaha. Regardless, I will do my best for the group and contribute as much for the documentary. (:

Here are some of my favourite photos from the trip! xD

The first thing we tried when we arrive in Bangkok! Some sort of crepe thinggy. DELICIOUS and only RM2.50 for a whole box of it!

This isn't a good picture but the content of the picture is beyond orgasmic <3
Here, we see an AMAZING giant Garfield cat with THUMBS! Very obvious THUMBS!

A beautiful shot of a temple in Bangkok (I don't remember the name because it was difficult pronounce)! Everything on the walls and the ceilings were hand-crafted and hand-drawn! Really astounding.

Got a foot massage for RM15 for a full hour! Totally worth the money man. I also tried out the Thai massage (which was RM20) for the first time. Holy shitz whart an experience! The therapist used every limb on her body to relief my body of tension. Freakin' coohl but weird at the same time. The best part was when she cracked my back. HODAMN THE RELIEF! <3
This was the 3rd time I saw men playing chess or checkers or whatever by the side of the road. It's so normal for them but so interesting to us! Hahaha.

TUK TUK! Scary way of getting around the city because some of the drivers are goddamn assholes when driving! LOL! Kiwi and all got into a tuk tuk that was driven by a guy who looked so gangster and drove like one! Cut 5 lanes on the highway and went against traffic wtf!

Anyway, lets talk about SHOPPINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG! Oh my God to be a person who isn't brand conscious and succumbs to impulse buy, BANGKOK SHOPPING IS HEAVENLY! Platinum Mall has like thousands of boutiques with tons of clothes and sales! Most have clothes selling at like RM10-RM15 each! And if you look hard enough, you can get the most gorgeous things. Even when they're not on sale, the wholesale prices are at least RM25 and so it's a good buy nonetheless! You just have to buy the clothes in bulks - with friends. Hehehe! :D

Platinum is great for clothes and accessories, but whart about bags and shoes? MBK! I didn't manage to get any shoes (sad face emoticon booooooo) but I did buy a few bags and at a VERY CHEAP PRICE OMG. We were at MBK for like 2 hours so the time limited our shopping; that may have been a good thing because if we stayed any longer, we would've bought hundreds of shops in the mall itself! ARGH! So many bags I could cry. xD And there were so many at RM20, unbelievable.

Other than that, aiyaaaaa tepi jalan also can buy! Hahaha. I bought like so many tops and accessories! Some of the road vendors sell items for even less than from the malls! A woman sold rings for RM2 EACH. In Malaysia, those cheap rings could go up to RM12 (which to me is now a total cheat cause they can break off easily and you lose so much $$!) and then another guy was selling checkered shirts for RM16 which Melgan practically sapu off the rack (I regret not buying! THE SHIRTS WERE SO NICE T.T).

A-MAH-ZING. I feel as though blogshops in Malaysia are no longer worth my time. Maybe bazaars are still okay but I don't think I'll ever buy from online blogshops again. I feel so cheated! Hahaha! Damn, now I'm like Qiu Qiu! Budget shopping forever! >:D

Here are the stuff I bought.

DRESSES! I actually bought 6 dresses but the tie dye maxi is in the laundry. :D You see the tutu dress on the left? I saw this in Pyramid for RM59 wtf. And in Platinum, I bought it for freakin' RM15. Luckily I didn't waste my money when I saw it in Pyramid! I would've been damn pissed LOL. The other dresses were about RM15 - RM18. All so sweet and pretty ahhhh! <3

The bags in the photo were RM20 each, the shirts are for other people because I ain't a tee shirt person TEEHEE and the accessories, can I say I LOVE THEM SO MUCH. Look at the TWIGGY NECKLACE OMG. The shop I bought it from was like a jewelery chamber from heaven! <3 Tons of beautiful necklaces and rings! I was contemplating on whether to choose a pendant of Twiggy or a Pentax camera; I then remembered whart my mom said about shopping, "Always buy the first thing you see". LOL! And that is, Twiggy! :D
The stuff at the left corner are shower gels and lotions and stuff from BOOTS! I spent about RM100+ on Boots products! The cashier laughed at my enthusiasm hahaha but not all are for me! The scrubs are mostly for my mom. I can't believe that every weekend, Boots has sales for these things and everything is like RM10 EACH! Of course I sapu everything larh! I regret not getting the hair mask that Simba told me to try. ): DAMN. Nvm, will ask Hafiz to get it the next time he goes there.

TANK TOPS! I told myself to get more tops from Bangkok but I didn't think I would get this many. Hahaha! I think the best buys are the three tops from the bottom right corner. JODE, Lizzy and Gaga. Hahaha! They were RM18 each though but seriously worth the buy! The shop it came from had TONS of tops like this with graphics of Madonna, The Beatles, Brad Pitt, Jimi Hendrix, Kid Rock, The Ramones and bla bla but I didn't wanna be a poser so I got the tops with the things that I genuinely LOVEEEEEEE. JOHNNY DEPP ON A TANK TOP? DREAMS HAVE COME TRUE. Waiting for Zac Efron to be worthy enough to be on a tank top. <3
I love skulls and I don't know why. I only got 2 things with skulls and that bothers me. I should've gotten more! Maybe leggings with skulls on it or something but I didn't! ): Sad. I think the best buy in this photo is the WATERMELON SKIRT. OMG SO CUTE HAHA! Who would wear this? Simba and I apparently. LOL!

Anyway enough of jakun-ing about my hauling of massive amounts of clothing and accessories. BYEH.

In need of a good shoulder to cry on but no one is available so I shall just rant on my blog

2011-05-17T16:06:00.004+08:00

Anyone who has added me on their Twitter or Facebook knows that I've just experienced my whole world crumble before my very own eyes. It may not seem like a big deal to many (especially those who aren't in my course) but it is a major deal to me.

My hard disk is currently experiencing hardware failures and cannot be detected on any laptops or computers. I've been to about 3-4 shops in which the owners are those of whom are familiar with all these high-tech mambo jumbo that us simpletons don't know shit about. Each person I go to, they will direct me to another who is more experienced and who can actually diagnose the problem with more depth and detail. The last person I went to told me that I have to send my hard disk to a shop in Kepong because there are only a few shops that are skillful enough to break my hard disk apart, retrieve every single thing that I've put into it and store it back into another hard disk.

When I was form 5, I experienced the same problem. But back then, I didn't have much to lose. At this very moment, I have 3 years worth of work in that hard disk and 3 good years of photos from 2009 - 2011 in there too. I don't care about the music, movies and manga stored in there, I JUST NEED MY WORK AND PHOTOS BACK. I will continuously kick myself in the ass for not bothering to back up my files. THE STUPIDEST THING I HAVE EVER DONE IN MY LIFE. I use to never depend on hard disks so much but why, oh why did I this time? It's my fault really. I blame my carelessness. ): No use crying over spilled milk (even though I cried bucket loads 2 days ago).

Honestly, I don't care how much it costs. I don't care if I have to starve for a month to pay them people to retrieve my data. JUST TELL ME THAT IT IS POSSIBLE. Judging by what the shop owner in Low Yatt said, it IS possible. But difficult tasks like these cost a lot of money. I don't care, I won't give up. I can't give up. D:

I know I know, it's not like someone died or anything. But put yourself in my shoes. Imagine the major stress I put myself through for 3 years straight, collecting documents, saving reports, my soft copy of folios, my recordings and analysis, practically EVERYTHING to do with my Architecture course - potentially disappearing forever and for a reason that no normal person would know of. It's worse knowing that my family can't relate and constantly poke at me instead of spreading love and generously giving me some hopeful words. I appreciate those who have comforted me, those who could relate with me (sharing their past experiences), Google and those who attempted to help me even though they knew whatever solution they suggested might not work. Thanks guys. Now all I need is hope and prayers. Will send my hard disk to the shop next week, after returning from Bangkok.

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On another note, to cheer myself up, I played around with Sketchup and 3Ds Max. Rendered everything already which is good. I don't care how simple or boring it is, as long as the criteria is met then wtv. (Y)

The landscape is hilarious. I wanted to add more buildings but I got fed up with how my programs began to lag; so this is good enough. As long as I don't fail the subject.

I will go look for food now because that is how I deal with depression.

2011-05-15T02:58:00.004+08:00

Another week has come and gone. Seems like time passes in a flash. Just a little over a month from now, my semester will end; 3rd semester that is. And then HOLIDAYS. And then comes my 4th semester, along with an internship and then I'd be putting a pause on studies. Hmmm. Seems like a long time from now but when that day comes when I stop studying in Taylor's, I'll be in denial and utter devastation. I seriously hate not doing anything productive; even though I exhaust myself mentally and physically 90% of the time, it kills me to think that I won't be learning anything new - architecturally that is - for 4 whole months. I mean, I could work in a firm or something but there's also that desire to spend those ONLY consecutive months of freedom to just do whatever it is I want, without deadlines, stress or worries. Contradictory yes, but that's normal. I'll make sure I do productive things, just nothing related to architecture. HAHA! Just to freshen up my mind a lil'. Start jogging again, take up Mandarin classes, brush up on photography, prepare myself for month of always cooking at home - all that jazz.

ANYWAY BACK TO THE REAL WORLD.

The loon in the middle has just finished her 2nd semester of Architecture in UM (whilst I continue to stress about work). Haha. Managed to catch up with her and Jas last Monday night. (: Ate like pigs, teman Jas while she shopped for many many dresses, and gossiped. Haha. :D

Chan brought Ivy and I to this very gorgeous place called the Hills (I drove though hmph). I don't explore places as much because I don't know where I'm suppose to go (haha) so I wait for my friends to bring me to wherever and hope it's pretty like this restaurant bar. Hehe.

Yummy watermelon drink. (:

These are the weapons of destruction in which I am the victim the weapons inflict pain upon. I've been spending my week doing these things GAWD. And I have to finish by Tuesday, before I leave for Bangkok the day after.

My ridiculously messy sketch model. The scale is seriously TOO SMALL. 1:250 for a VIC that's below 450 m sq?! No, no cannot. LOL! Messiest and probably the smallest sketch model I've ever made but at least I successfully made it show my idea (I guess?).

3Ds Max! It's not done yet of course. This was rendered without light because with light, it will take donkey years to render. I re-did the whole of PTT cause I got extremely fed up. Now, it looks better. I added and adjusted things so for the current one, materials are more obvious, there's massing of neighbouring buildings and the sky light makes the towers look more real, which is the purpose of 3Ds Max after all. The only thing I have left to do is to add landscape and VOILA. :D

Anyway, CAN'T WAIT TO GO TO BANGKOK AGAIN BECAUSE I WANT TO SHOP LIKE A CRAZY FAT COW AND TAKE PRETTY PHOTOS AND EAT FRIED GRASSHOPPERS YAY.

Happy 365 days of being stuck with me! (:

2011-05-09T03:04:00.000+08:00

I love you ♥

Take a break, have everything in the fridge!

2011-05-07T17:05:00.006+08:00

I'm taking a break from doing my Studio work right now. Been trynna calm myself down from being so stress and angry this whole week. This weekend will be my attempt at relaxing. And some may find it weird but doing work to me can be relaxing, especially when drawing or making models. HAHA so silly.

Anyway enough with the rubbish. I wanted to blorg cause I remembered that I typed out some stuff into my iTouch and phone, some random phenomenons that I've experienced the passed few month. Just thought of sharing it here.

This is the first. Wrote this when I was in Langkawi.

"Langkawi has beaches that light up the atmosphere, reflecting; with its white crystal sands, every ray of light that penetrates the space we so freely invade and walk into. The ocean, with a horizon line that spars miles away from the shore, projecting glimmering sparkles of light upon it's turquoise blue waves; slowly crashing onto the shore in a very hypnotic manner; perfectly timed and composed.

Yellow cafe steakhouse; a harmoniously designed open space with music and shade that could put you to slumber within the few minutes of sitting your ass down onto the Turkish cushions so generously provided by the staff. Comfortable and clever use of bamboo for the roof on which brings us shelter above our delicate heads - a fine restaurant boutique that leaves us with sheepish grins on our faces.

Swinging on a hammock, with my purple wayfarers shielding my eyes, a purple fan in my right hand, a chocolate ice blended cocktail in another and the macho man of my world right beside me, life couldn't be any more blissful than it is this very second.

Whilst the others enjoy themselves by swimming in the ocean, I choose to stay on my hammock; to watch them whilst my brain rests from the very depths of my mind, listening to other travelers surrounding me converse about their days on this floating islands whilst breathing in the mixture of the scent of beer and salt water in the air and at the same time, listening to music that gives you the greatest blast of reminiscence and peacefulness;- this in fact, was the Langkawi holiday I had imagined and here it is, coming true."

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Here's another. I think I was very irritated by someone so I typed this out. But I don't remember who. LOL!

"Being an individual means being a person who is original; one of a kind. However you choose to be yourself is entirely up to you because frankly, no one cares enough to judge. but if there is pathetic bloke that chooses to waste his/her life, psycho analyzing every inch of another's personal life style like some obsessed stalker and somehow, alters their life to suit that of the people they are disgustingly obsessing over then, to me, hat's not being original; that's not being yourself.

It's difficult to be a person who tries not to judge because in all honesty, I think that everyone judges each other; some just choose to keep it to themselves while others voice out their irrelevant thoughts.

I, personally, try not to judge people because from experience, it's just not a good thing to do. it's better to just keep an open mind and accept one for who he/she is. but how do you accept someone who openly displays the immensity of unoriginality upon every inch of his/her body; physically, mentally, emotionally?

I don't like to judge people by the way they look (although I have been guilty of doing so; I am human) but in this case, there is a certain relationship between I and this poor soul who wishes to display stupidity to the world whilst hiding the true genius behind this plastic mask on which blank wears.

How is it possible that this blank could act as though he/she is as wealthy as bill gates or even most of my best friends when in actual fact, blank is merely a middle upper class folk who hasn't even travelled to half the places I have been and yet pretends to know-it-all. I mean, I'm grateful for all my experiences but blank acts as though he/she has money shooting out his/her Ass when in actual fact, obviously does not.

Blank is living proof of a psychological research theory which states that when one tells others what they themselves label themselves as, it is untrue; for example, a grown man telling companions (probably in a very bragging manner) that he once use to be a bully in high school when in actuality, he was probably a wimpy kid who stayed away from contacting the human race. an actual bully wouldn't go around telling people that he was once a bully; that isn't even something to be proud of. Blank is known by many for his/her pride in false individuality. Of course, this is ridiculous to people who cannot bare with the rubbish that spew out of a minute creatures mouth but of course, as a companion, you must simply smile, nod your head, shrug once or twice, then move on.

I just wish there were less pretentious people claiming to be original by calling themselves "indie", "prep" or whatever other stereotypical labels there are in this corrupt generation of quickly "evolving" teens. Whatever happened to doing what you like just because you like it and not just cause the next upcoming trend is to wear high-waist shorts, go cycling in denim jeans or getting under cuts? What ever happened to following your instincts instead of blending in with clones surrounding your perimeter, breathing your air? The worse thing is, when someone labels you as something you're not, just because something you're fond of or have passion for is some sort of trend that's blowing in the wind; would probably disappear within weeks and wither away until something even more inauthentic comes back in trend; in which you ate considered outdated."

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This is another one. I typed this out when I was waiting for my mom in the hospital.

"Interesting phenomenon - i was sitting by my self, being invisble amongst a crowd - a family of indians, a family of chinese and a family of malays surrounding me, waiting for thei family member at the emergency, as of i. Whilst waiting, they found comfort with each other by story-telling of why they were here in the hospital and questioned each other about their loved ones. All speaking to each other in bm, laughing and advicing each other with smiles on their faces, in our national language."

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Sorry if there are mistake or typos. I couldn't be bothered to read through all the crap I vomited out.

Okay anyway, I'll just be boring and allow my face to sag even further than it already has, as the stress piles up on my shoulders. Squeeze more juice outta this brain of mine. Bah. It's May. I have another month until everything is over. The 10th week is 2 days away. The 14th week, a month away. I have to keep reminding myself that I will have the taste of freedom in such a short period of time. KEEP HOLDING ON WOMAN. *sings to Avril Lavigne's sappy song*

K BYE.

BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

2011-04-28T14:34:00.006+08:00

I forgot to blorg about how awesome my group's site model is. Well here it is! I shall display the awesomeness that is our model, here on my blorg. (: All the so-called "macro" shots were taken by me, even though I used a 18 - 50mm. Hehe I iz con artist. *shakes eyebrows*

1:250! This was apparently HUGE for this particular assignment for this particular semester. We were only suppose to do 1:500 but we insisted on making it bigger and changing the scale because we're kiasu and awesome liddat. Hahaha! But also because, if the buildings were 1:500, there won't be any details. It'd be over-whelmed by trees hahaha!

This is Yi Rui's Tanah Rata sign. I know it's nothing much but I just wanna show how extremely neat she is. LOL! She's this neat like all the time. It's so impressive!

This is Yvonne Tan's clock tower. It's about half the size of your pinky finger. Haha. She's proud of it so I took a very proud photo OF it for her.

This is the building that's taking up a lot of the attention on our model. Haha. Yuan Li's bus terminal. It's seriously very detailed and neat. SHE TOOK 3 DAYS TO DO IT.

Yvonne Tan's disproportionate tennis court haha.

Faisal's adorable little Malay style government headquarters.

The ladies that semangat came in floral theme! :D

Hehe! I'm so happy and proud of my building forms team! I hope I did enough as a leader and I hope you guys are happy and proud with whart we've worked so hard on, together as a massive group! Also, good job to landscape and circulation (you know who you are :P)! You guys did an incredible job! Hope my contribution to the trees were enough and hopefully, we get the grade that we know we deserve! :D
GOOD JOB MY LOVES. <3

WHEEEEEEEEEEE!

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For Building Construction 2, we have to choose a building to analyze, study, write about and make a model out of. So my group, being the very ambitious group that we are, chose Shigeru Ban's Centre Pompidou-Metz in France. It looks like this.

Teflon and timber! Organic shapes! xD Why wouldn't I love it, right? But making a model out of this beauty, yikes. Gonna be an enormous challenge. But whatever man!

Our challenge would be to figure out how to make the teflon and also how to show the detail of the ghulam timber and how it's being held together structurally. GONNA BE RAD WHEN WE FINISH IT. Expect some LED gizmos. :P

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Building Science madness. I'm going crazy trynna figure out whart to write in our report. Goddamn calculations and thermal comfort. GAH!

K gonna plan out my schedule now bye.

HUNGRY-ETH

2011-04-21T00:05:00.005+08:00

It's Thursday, the 6th day of my so-called "semester break". Haha. Not much of a semester break. The most time I've spent lazing around was when I invaded Jas's place for 3 days, declared her Mac PC as my own, ate all her food and watched anime and YouTube videos with her ... whilst drawing Century Pines Resort for my assignment but it's still considered lazing around! Haha.

Us, after eating roast chicken from FullHouse and telling each other stories about life and other shit liddat. Hahaha. I'm seeing her again this weekend to watch Never Say Never. OH LORD. Bittersweet decision.

I don't care whart people say, I like FullHouse! LOL! And Sunway Giza is actually REALLY cooling at night. The eco-design has achieved it's purpose, but only during the night. Haha. Uncomfortable humidity and the constant moist feeling is still amidst during the day, even though natural wind in being directed through the building and the open space is being shaded by the roof (better stop now before I get all Building Science about the place).

So, whart kind of semester break is this if all I do is WORK? Well, judging by the submission deadlines the lecturers have assigned to us, any free day that we have is valuable for doing work. Although submission for our Tanah Rata site model and digital presentation is this Monday, I insist on spending my weekend doing absolute NOTHING - by nothing I mean, actually relaxing. Hahaha. We MUST finish the goddamn model by TODAY! The digital presentation (my part at least) WILL BE DONE BY TODAY AS WELL. MUST.

The beast of a model. Our terrain isn't as detailed as the other group's (because they used brown board, which is INSANE because it's extremely EXPENSIVE and cuts like a BITCH) but our buildings are beyond radical. I'm not the best model maker but at least I have team mates that are as neat as pins when it comes to working with brown board! Haha.

K gonna stone now because I don't have time to do that when in studio. Sigh. Can't wait for the semester to end. I NEED A BREAK.

Being boring.

2011-04-10T23:20:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday Chacha! :P I apologize for making you emo for a few days during your birthday and also after. :P We planned out something totally perfect for you but due to some unfortunate incidents, we had to go to plan B, which is scaring you in campus and taking you out for dinner. :D Hahaha. Hope you loved it regardless.

Your birthday video! Hehehe. (:

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Assignments assignments assignments. So far, for studio, got 2 A-'s. Good good. :P Gotta maintain the A's, be it with a minus or not. Hahaha! I have a 3ds Max massing assignment due next week, then after sem break, will have 3 assignments due on that one week. OH FUN FUN FUN.

My contribution to the Malaysians' patriotism. (Y)

I'm happy with my progress in uni. The fact that I've been hand selected for certain things like having my work published in the university prospectus (I assume this is whart my lecturer was explaining to me haha I dunno) and for the accreditation thinggy for PAM, winning the poster contest (though it has nothing to do with my course but it's good for my folio :D) and maintaining my grades, I should pat myself on the back. Back in form 5, I wouldn't believe that I could accomplish such things in my life, be it small things such as these. I'm getting there, I guess. (Y) Keep working hard Sarah! You're a well oiled machineeeee! AWH YEAHHH!

I haven't done anything productive today though. ): At least I used my Basheer vouchers to get books! HEHE! Studio 3, I will kill you with POETICS.

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Message to you. Stop being a bitch and grow up. You're so rude, it's disgusting.

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Assignments to be done :

3Ds Max ; Massing

Deadline - Friday 15th April - finish by Tuesday 12th April.

Straw Tower Report

Deadline - Friday 15th April - finish by Thursday 14th April.

Tanah Rata Site Model

Deadline - Monday 26th April - finish by ... hopefully Thursday 21st April, depending on other groups.

Building Science Report

Deadline, Monday 26th April - finish by Sunday 25th April.

Warisan Merdeka Report

Deadline (TBC) - finish ASAP!

MUST. FOLLOW. SCHEDULE. NO. PROCRASTINATING.

Because I like distractions

2011-04-02T22:02:00.003+08:00

I should be getting to my model and assignments but ... (:

I am a male

I am a female

I am shorter than 5’4

I think I’m ugly sometimes.
I have scars.
I tan easily.
I wish my hair was a different color.

I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.

I have a tattoo.

I am self-conscious about my appearance.
I have/I’ve had braces.

I wear glasses/contacts.

I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.

I've been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger.
I have more than 2 piercings.
I have piercing in places besides my ears.

I have freckles.

I’ve sworn at my parents - whilst telling them stories haha

I’ve run away from home.

I’ve been kicked out of the house.

I have a sibling less than six year old.

I want to have kids someday

I’ve lost a child.

I’m in school

I have a job.

I’ve fallen asleep at work/school.
I almost always do/did my homework.

I’ve missed a week or more of school.

I failed more than 1 class last year - this applies to high school for me. :P

I’ve stolen something from my job.

I’ve slipped out an “lol” in a spoken conversation - slipped? LOL.
Disney movies still make me cry.
I’ve peed from laughing.

I’ve snorted while laughing

I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.

I’ve glued my hand to something.

I’ve had my pants rip in public

I was born with a disease/impairment.

I’ve gotten stitches/staples.

I’ve broken a bone.

I’ve had my tonsils removed

I’ve sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.

I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.

I had a serious surgery. - not so serious got larh. Haha.

I’ve had chicken pox.

I’ve had measles.

I’ve driven over 200 miles in one day.

I’ve been on a plane.

I’ve been to Canada

I’ve been to Mexico

I’ve been to Niagara Falls.

I’ve been to Japan.

I’ve celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.

I’ve been to Europe.

I’ve been to Africa.

I’ve gotten lost in my city.

I’ve seen a shooting star.

I’ve wished on a shooting star.

I’ve seen a meteor shower.

I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.

I’ve pushed all the buttons in the elevator

I’ve kicked a guy where it hurts.

I’ve been to a casino.

I’ve been skydiving.

I’ve gone skinny dipping.

I’ve drunk a whole gallon of milk in one hour

I’ve crashed a car - does hitting a column count? HEHE.

I’ve been snowboarding.

I’ve been in a play.
I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue.

I’ve seen the Northern lights.

I’ve sat on a roof top at night

I’ve played chicken fight.

I’ve played a prank on someone.
I’ve ridden in a taxi.

I’ve seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.

I’ve eaten sushi.

I’ve been skiing.

I’m single.

I’m in a relationship.

I’m engaged.

I’m married.

I’ve gone on a blind date.

I’ve been the dumped more than the dumper

I miss someone right now

I have a fear of abandonment.

I’ve gotten divorced.

I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.

I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.

I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.

I’ve kept something from a past relationship

I’ve had a crush on a teacher.

I am a cuddler.

I’ve been kissed in the rain.

I’ve hugged a stranger.

I have kissed a stranger.

I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.
I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.

I’ve snuck out of my house.

I have lied to my parents about where I am.
I am keeping a secret from the world.
I’ve cheated while playing a game.
I’ve cheated on a test.

I’ve run a red light.

I’ve been suspended from school.

I’ve witnessed a crime.

I’ve been in a fist fight

I’ve been arrested.

I’ve consumed alcohol.

I regularly drink.

I’ve passed out from drinking.

I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.

I’ve smoked weed.

I’ve taken painkillers when I didn’t need them.

I’ve eaten shrooms - tempting! Nesh will probably try to persuade me. LOL!

I’ve popped E.

I’ve inhaled Nitrous.

I’ve done hard drugs - PANADOL.

I have cough drops when I’m not sick.

I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.

I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.

I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.

I shut others out when I’m depressed.

I take anti-depressants.

I have been anorexic or bulimic.

I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it.

I’ve hurt myself on purpose.

I’ve woken up crying.

I’m afraid of dying.

I hate funerals.

I’ve seen someone dying.

Someone close to me has committed suicide.

I’ve planned my own suicide.

I’ve attempted suicide.

I’ve written a eulogy for myself.

I own over 5 rap CDs.

I own an iPod or MP3 player.

I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.

I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.

I own something from Hot Topic.

I own something from Pac Sun.

I collect comic books.

RANTS AND UPDATES

2011-03-30T23:03:00.012+08:00

JUST TO BE CLEAR. I love the people in Taylor's; the lecturers, my friends. This post isn't directed to them at all. Educationally, Taylor's is providing us with sufficient knowledge. I love them and respect them completely. I TOO want to be good in my studies and pass with flying colours and have a long-lasting, good relationship with my lecturers.

I don't want to cause trouble or be in trouble by posting this up but, I simply HAVE to mention the problems us students in Taylor's are facing! BUT THIS ISSUE IS BECOMING MORE RIDICULOUS BY THE MINUTE!

To sum it up;

#1;

Not enough parking spaces in our campus, but our management INSISTS on having hoards of students enter our campus with new intakes and new courses and moving of courses! FIRST OF ALL, why on earth is the location of our campus next to a river/giant longkang, pylons, cows, the TOLL, LDP, RESIDENTIAL AREA AND FACTORIES?! WHY? Who would choose such a location that limits so many things for the campus users?! Secondly, WHY IS FUTURE PLANNING SO BADLY DONE? A class of 150 students cannot fit into a lecture theatre (more like classroom) of 50 seats RIGHT?! C'mon larh!

#2;

An issue raised by students as to Taylor's commencing parking fees coming June 1st. I WILL NOT PAY RM3 PER ENTRY TO PARK MY CAR AT THE ROCKY AREA BEHIND COMMERCIAL BLOCK. DON'T BE STUPID. Unless you TAR THE PARKING LOTS, PROVIDE MORE LOTS AND GET BETTER QUALITY GUARDS, FORGET IT.

#3;

WHY AREN'T THE PARKING LOTS TARRED? You can afford to invest in FAMOUS AMOS, HOAGIES, BASKIN ROBBINS, shops that BARELY have business but NOT TARRED ROADS? WHART?!

#4;

Is THIS how you temporarily solve parking problems? SERIOUSLY? Forcing us to park in dangerous areas that could potentially ruin the cars that we have to travel in? I didn't even see ANY Taylor's guards helping this poor guy out!

#5;

The carpooling system that Taylor's is trying to fire up, in my opinion, WILL NOT WORK. WHY? Your students come from many different areas of SELANGOR. Subang Jaya, Puchong, Damansara, Serdang, Kota Kemuning, USJ, Klang etc; with different schedules, how on earth do you think we should car pool?

#6;

Alternatives for transportation; BUS?! Do you not know the traffic on LDP? Peak hours, the bus would be late for HOURS. If the bus is full? Students have to WAIT. Me thinks it will be inefficient!

#7;

DO YOU KNOW THAT THE STAFF PARKING AREA IS ALWAYS NEVER FULL? WHY? STAFF DON'T EVEN WANNA PAY RM60 A MONTH FOR STAFF PARKING. OPEN YOUR EYES PLEASE!

#8;

You guys keep mentioning that you will improve our campus for the future. A little birdy told me that you were planning on making car parks under the lake (anyone with logic would know that that is NOT POSSIBLE) or something but even if this is so, WHY ARE YOU NEGLECTING YOUR CURRENT STUDENTS? AREN'T WE PAYING THE SAME AMOUNT AS THE NEW INTAKES? DON'T WE DESERVE TO BE TREATED FAIRLY? It's unfair. We're like you're pathetic guines pigs that you test new and ridiculous things out on.

#9;

CLICK HERE AND PLEASE READ THE COMMENTS

A student stated, "The guards dont even care, Reason: Saya takut baju saya kotor." Oh okay. So if someone were robbing a student, practically slashing them with a knife, you wouldn't help because you'd be scared to dirty your uniform? DO THEY SOUND LIKE QUALIFIED SECURITY GUARDS TO YOU? No baton! No stick! Some so fat some so skinny! They don't even have strength to protect themselves from danger! THESE are the people you choose to protect YOUR students?

If I get in trouble, well I can fight back because I have THOUSANDS of students backing me up. WE ALL face this problem that YOU aren't resolving.

Seriously, my mother did not work hard to pay for such crappy services. I refuse to ask my father for MORE money for stupid parking that could WRECK the cars that I drive in (RM600 a year MAN! I could buy tons of material with that!)! And I will DEFINITELY not ask my parents to drive me to campus! DO YOU KNOW HOW OLD THEY ARE? THEY NEED TO REST. STOP SUCKING THEIR ENERGY DRY. This is an issue that SHOULD BE RESOLVED AND NOT IGNORED. ARE YOU REALLY TRYING TO MAKE THINGS BETTER FOR YOUR STUDENTS OR ARE YOU JUST IN IT FOR THE MONEY? Your name is being scarred, Taylor's, by your OWN STUDENTS. Not only me, but EVERYONE ELSE WHO PAYS FOR THIS SHIT.

SERIOUSLY, because of these issues, money, travelling, over-priced food, PARKING, I CAN'T WAIT TO LEAVE AND FLY OFF TO GO OVERSEAS.

I'm sorry if this is harsh but it's the truth.

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On another totally opposite note, been busy with work and stuff! My trip to Cameron highlands took a toll on my phone. T^T The phone I adore EVER so much is now with the Boh tea and strawberries sigh.

Had an awesome time in Cameron Highlands; when I say awesome, I mean pretty relaxing. This is the first time I have ever felt so stress free on a study trip. Compared to many others I've been on. HAHA. Got enough sleep, played games, stoned A LOT, loitered, camwhored and all that jazz.

I was chosen as the leader of the Architectural Forms group. So far, work went well. Recording of massing and such was good. I have very cooperative mates so working with them makes things easy and fast. (:

The crime scene in which my phone disappeared.

Like a magical wonderland. :D

I love the colours. I almost lost hope in Malaysia and its nature, until I went to Tanah Rata.

After loosing my phone, I got a plushie to cheer myself up. Hahaha!

Tanah Rata! From the chapel beside the convent. :D

Testing the Nikon's macro quality. TEEHEE. The flowers and insects up in Camerons are insanely gorgeous and huge! There were Hibiscus bigger than my whole hand! :D

Straw Tower will be the epiczzzzz! Because hopefully, it can hold up more than 2kgs! YAY!

St. Peter's Basilica is nothing compared to our tower. :P

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After losing my phone, I went like 5 days without portable contact! Hahaha. I didn't know being an archi-student without a phone would be SO DIFFICULT. So I got some money, sold off some stuff and got myself the cheapest Nokia QWERTY phone! LOL! The X2-01. It's like a ridiculously cheap smartphone (Lol) and it looks like a BB HAHA! Rip off. But if I can call and sms with it, then it's good enough. It has a clear screen too so (Y)(Y)! It's cute. I need to get a silicone cover and a protective screen for it to prevent it from getting scratched. :D

YAY!

50% Morbid 50% Not-so morbid

2011-03-25T00:16:00.005+08:00

Please click this link to read about the 7.0 earthquake that hit Myanmar

I'm pretty sure I'm being melodramatic and paranoid at this point but news about earthquakes hitting Thailand and Myanmar is scaring me shitless. What should I do? I'm just beginning to live my life! Whart if I don't live long enough to fulfill my dream? ): This is such a morbid thought.

If predictions were true, and being Muslim (though the signs are clear and I'm really REALLY afraid), I'm obliged to not believe in such things, but IF, hypothetically speaking, it were true, then ... why am I even bothering with studies? Why don't I just spend whatever money my parents have saved up for me and travel the world and check off everything that's on my bucket-list? This is really stirring up something deep within my thoughts.

I feel so worried and sad. The idea of losing everyone and everything on this earth. Oh gosh.

All I can do is pray for the safety of my family and friends. Pray that the world will be alright. I hope Allah has a plan; but I also hope He will spare our lives to get His point across. I may not appear religious, nor do I practice, but I do believe in Him, along with an extremely open mind; because anything could happen, ANYTHING.

If I forget, and anything DOES happen, I apologize for all my wrong-doings. I apologize if I have ever hurt you in any way. Intentionally or not, I hope you will forgive me.

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On another note, if all is well, my life will proceed with a lot of stress! ASSIGNMENTS YAY. My fingers are numb from making a straw tower, brain is cracking from trynna figure out a poetic structure for studio, eyes dried up from reading articles about the Warisan Merdeka shitload proposal. Soon, I'll have to record the humidity of a lovely restaurant beside the lake in campus! BAHHHHH! Lacking sleep, of course. Missing my 12 hours a day LOL!

I'll be going to Cameron Highlands tomorrow for a study trip. We will be making a 1:500 scale model of the town and it has to be done within 2 weeks YAY. No-sleepover at the studio WOOOOO!

My buttons have been very easily pushed these days. I even keep grudges longer than usual (I can't hold a grudge longer than a day LOL!). Could be the stress or lack of nutritional food. I dunno. But as some random genius on Tumblr once said, "OFF is the general direction in which you should FUCK!". BUT oh well. Sorry if I've been a bitch. ): I can't control it and I really don't know why.

I met up with a few Inaians this week to celebrate Ian's birthday. Coincidentally, we bumped into Mr. Chong! LOL! His son is Wern's neighbour. WHART ARE THE ODDS?! Great to see you Mr. Chong! (:

These are our tired-I-wanna-sleep faces (not).

This is my campus. Everyone says it's beautiful. Well, compared to others, yeah. But us archi-students know of the flaws of this design. xD

I wanna chill like Lizzie. ): She hangin' out, LIKE A BOSS.

So anyway, I'm basically going mental as the days go by. GONNA TRY TO FORCE MYSELF TO SLEEP NOW. Need to wake up at 6 yay.

Hahaha angry bitch post

2011-03-16T00:09:00.005+08:00

This is the post for all the haters out there! *waves fists in the air* B) No seriously. I had a mental breakdown a few weeks ago and it's because of hateful people. LOL! So here it goes.

I know I may seem kiasu (competitive) or lansi (show-off) but truth be told, that is half true. LOL! The kiasu part at least. I am competitive yes. Especially at whart I love to do, and because there are hundreds of others who have the same passion as me, it automatically makes me competitive. I want to be the best at whart I do. Why would I dedicate my time and effort and not come up with products of high standards? If that were the case, I'd drop everything, travel the world, collect cameras and take photographs (not forgetting eat EVERYTHING) 'til I die.

So anyway, competitiveness will lead to misunderstanding; people thinking that I'm lansi (a show-off), because I like to finish things early and I get excited about finishing early and post a photo or a status update about my finished product on FB or Twitter and then ... yar larh. All the hate in the world is unleashed and suddenly I'm the bitch who makes people look bad (the fuck!).

Another thing is, I'm always the one who has to be the bad guy; the one who tells the truth about how horrible some people are when it comes to work. And of course, I am labelled as the picky cunt and then THEY get offended. HUH? Excuse me, if you're gonna jeopardize my grade then of course I don't want you. Time for you to realize whart a lazy fuck you are.

I'm not usually one to care about whart others think because I am thick-skinned and pretty much oblivious to every living thing around me but if you accuse me of something I honestly did not do or think I am then wth of course I'd be troubled by it! It's quite a stab in the heart man. And the people who usually say these thinks know like whart? 3 things about me?; my name, my gender and that I'm a malay.

I mean gosh. Apologies for trying to be the best at whart I do and getting pissed off at people who try to wreck my grades and potentially a chance to get a scholarship! I'm aiming high here. I want my parents to live a life of luxury instead of paying for everything I need. So SORRY for being such a lansi bitch that you hate so much. But in the future, when I'm living with my family in a luxurious dream home, have like 15 professional cameras that I earned by myself, drive a BMW X5 around like a boss, have like 200 world-class buildings designed by me and my firm, and kicking it with the students at a prestigious university as a lecturer with my sketch book and water proof ArtLine felt tip pen, I'll be sure to have the last laugh.

PEACE.

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I have an internet crush on this British man. Hehehe. When I go to the UK, I will try to remember to search for him whenever I'm around London and as he requested, point at his face and scream, "I FOUND YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!".

I have come up with a theory; I like men who have that swishy mushroom hair, pretty eyes, straight teeth and pretty faces hence my love for JY, Zac Efron, Alex Pettyfer, Tae Min and now Charlie McDonnell. LOL!

Poetics

2011-03-13T01:58:00.004+08:00

Summary of this week!

#1 Assignment load is piling up! Monday, Studio presentation. Wednesday, 3D Max. Thursday, literature review proposal. Friday, straw tower proposal. GORSHHHHH!

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#2 Used up my savings for a sexy compact HD digital camera. I love using and learning how to use a DSLR, but sometimes, I don't have the strength to carry an extra limb with me to everywhere I go. So voila! A Canon IXUS 220 HS, or MONDO (named after Mondo of Project Runway Season 7 BUT I have decided that it is a SHE because I want it that way). I'll be using Mondo for my documentation assignments. HD recording in the palm of my hands man. Hehe. I will save up for another DSLR when I get the chance but for now, Mondo will do and will be well loved. :D

Hello my sweet. ♥

Here are photos by Mondo. I only resized them; no editing.

WAZZUP I R LIZZIEH

Hehe.

FLOWER POWER.

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#3 Waiting for my XPS 15. CAN'T WAIT TO START ON 3D MAX HOMG. I'm gonna do a rad vid of the Twin Towers. You WAIT AND SEE.

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#4 Stoning (without weed) is essential during our breaks.

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#5 Ramin has left for Aussie. ):

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#6 Had a surprise lunch and throat killing karaoke session for Yvonne Tan today! She has finally joined the 20 club! LOL! It was a successful surprise because Yvo is easy to surprise HAHA! :P Hope you had fun! Happy 20th birthday MUSHROOM!

FOOD! ♥

Photos of us with the birthday girl and her new clothes! xD

Justin Bieber poker cards that I designed and the others cut. @@ Must go cuci mata now.

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END because I'm sleepy and I have work to do on a Sunday. YAY!

A lil' lost

2011-03-06T00:51:00.004+08:00

The first week of class has officially passed by. Not that it's a big deal or anything. Whart IS a big deal (to me that is) is having an awesome week of receiving prizes! I feel so extremely happy and blessed, seriously. Feels like I finally got some rewards from all the stress I've put myself through. Thank you Allah, THANK YOU. :D

I've won a few awesome things;

1) Basheer vouchers.

2) $$ from the Cool Art competition; won a Special Mention award. ^_^

The exhibition for the Cool Art competition was very interesting. Got to see other students' work and I am honoured to have been apart of this exhibition because the artworks that were displayed are beyond great and much better than mine multiplied by 102938457! Other students got to use other mediums so their works were very canggih in comparison to our digital artwork. It was still good nonetheless! :D

3) A ton of awesome but gigantic stuff I had to lug around from Lot 10 > Monorail > LRT > Home.

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I've been having some mental breakdowns lately. Could be the PMS or it could just be me imagining the stress that has been laid out so perfectly on my ridiculous academic calendar. Sometimes I just want to burst out crying or run far far away and just sit and stare blindly into space. Don't feel like talking or moving or whatever. Feel like that now. I'm building my nest on my bed as I type this shit out. It's PMS larh. Yeah yeah PMS.

Architorture architorture architorture - goodbye life

2011-02-26T14:36:00.006+08:00

Everything is sinking in, slowly. My social life has been ripped away in a matter of seconds - but I'm not upset about it. I'm terrified actually. If you saw my life for the next 4 months (which, I tell you, will seem like FOREVER on our side), you would feel like banging your head against the wall and as Edward Norton once said in the Fight Club, "... paint the wall with my brain".

Goodbye comfortable 8 - 12 hour beauty sleep, goodbye shopping, goodbye besties, goodbye family, goodbye normal eating habits, goodbye vegetables, goodbye blorg, goodbye Tumblr, goodbye lovable cats, goodbye cooking shows, goodbye anime, goodbye goodbye GOODBYE.

Hello materials, hello money for materials, hello fast food, hello 1 - 5 hours of sleep, hello cavewoman hair, hello STUDIO3 BCON2 BSCIENCE1 COMP APP2 ASIAN ARC, hello studio tables, hello campus, hello no parking, hello ridiculously cold air-conditioning, hello pimples, HELLO HELLO HELLO AND DIE.

When you see me again this July, my eye bags would have tripled in length, my hair colour would be uneven, the hair on my head would be long enough to be a scarf, face would have aged by 10 years, fatigue level would have increased, digestion would have been abnormal, period cramps would probably disappear due to irregular sleeping hours and weird nutrition consumption ... Sigh.

The good thing is, I will take up this challenge. No matter whart, I need to do well. Sacrifices must be made for a life of luxury in the future. A LOT OF SACRIFICES. But it doesn't matter. Whatever happens, happens. I just have to keep my CGPA up and that would be good enough. Folios must be awesome, AWESOME. I don't think I'll have time to do extra-curricular activities to prettify my folio for this semester though but I'm sure my folio would be thick enough. Haha!

For semester 3, I will not work at home any more (unless it's for a report but even so, quit doing it at home and do it in campus). The studio is my new home (again). My laptop must not die. I must concentrate and finish all work on time. Cut down all television time, cut down anything FUN. Time to bring out the inner workaholic within me. No more playing around. For 4 months, I must sacrifice my friends, leisures, my boyf and anything that will make me feel like playing and replace it with having fun doing assignments (especially studio).

I CAN DO THIS. YES I CAN.

Oh juniors. You don't know whart you're getting yourself into. SERIOUSLY.

24 days have gone by!

2011-02-24T14:34:00.004+08:00

The ever so fancy vintage shoot! Our second of many to come! LALA was first, vintage was second ... whart next? Trashy? Harajuku? Rempit? Romantic? LOL! We don't know but we decided to make our shoots alternate from fugly to gorgeous then fug then gorg again. You get the idea. :D

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We had a party to celebrate our holidays and also to bid it adieu as it is our last week of holidays. HOW HORRIBLE IS THIS? One month has gone by just like that! So we decided to have some fun before the stress come crawling back up our asses. Had fun playing Gin Rummy, Tai Ti, watched others get wasted playing In Between, whilst we tested our strength as well (wink wink LOLLL). IT WAS REALLY FUN. Btw, check out Bear's face! HAHAHA! PINK PINK PINK. ♥

Sigh. It's very depressing to think of it but to be honest, I can't wait to test myself, as unprepared as I am, I'MMA KILL SEMESTER 3 AS THOUGH IT WERE AN IRRITATING MOSQUITO BUZZING AROUND MY FACE. BWAHAHA.

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RESULT DAY IS TOMORROW. *hyper-ventilates*

Prosperity burger

2011-02-19T23:00:00.006+08:00

I shall type out my recent CNY house hopping experience whilst listening to Mercedes and Santana singing a duet on the tele.

So this year for my third week of holidays, I decided to catch up with my loves since my 2 weeks in UK seemed 3 times longer than that. Within 2 weeks, many events occurred and some catching up was in order, of course. Went out with the wives and exchanged stories; I then spent time with my college mates and went CNY house hopping! This was my first time ever going to so many houses within 2 days. It wasn't as outstandingly happening as I assumed it would be, seeing as it was the last 2 days of CNY but having 9 others travelling from one end of Selangor to another with me is a party of its own. :D

The route from the first house to the last is as follows; Yuan Li - Simba - Kiwi - Eng Wei - Jun You - Yvonne Tan - Teck Chee - Melvin!

Day 1: Yuan Li's place! We drew Yvo and Chacha out! They were there with us (in our hearts). AWWWH!

Simbaba's place!

Kiwi's place. :D

Day 2: Eng Wei's place! I don't know why Melvin's posing with a 100 plus can ...

Jun You's place! Check out Maximus! :D Posing with the family.

Yvo's place! This is where all Gin Rummy chaos broke lose!

Teck Chee's place! :D I don't have the photo of us having dinner at Melvin's place. ): It's with Teck Chee and he's being lazy BOO! I DEMAND THE PHOTO TONY! Dx
So anyway, twas indeed a long list of houses to visit! Next year, we plan on making that list longer; state to state HEHE!

So anyway, I shall list down the most memorable parts of this experience which were;

1) Learning more of the Chinese culture from my friends who have so graciously let me into their norm of a life.

2) Until you have wed, you will forever receive ang pao! Hahaha! And to me, I think this is pretty much an extremely generous tradition, seeing as some of my friends' parents have given us quite a bountiful amount of $$. I don't know how many times I can say thanks!

3) Learning Gin Rummy. THIS GAME IS THE SHIZ MAN. I love it so much! I could play it for hours! But only if there's no gambling involve (unless it's with food then I'm in) hahaha!

4) Generally, spending time with friends. I only have less than 2 years left before I leave for Scotland so I won't pass on any event that involves spending time with my loves! ♥♥

Levain is a pretty place with pricey small-portioned food! LOL! Still nice though.

The DELICIOUS cheesecake that we have fallen so deeply in love with, made by mama Simba.

Tai ti! A game in which I still have to master. One day, I shall beat JY, in EVERY ROUND. *_*

The view from Eng Wei's house! It was such a nice and bright (but hot) day too! :D

Coffee! The shyest dog I've ever met!

This is my hubby, getting high on shandy.

LET THE GIN RUMMY GAMES BEGIN.

CNY house hopping again next year please! :D Hehehe.

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ON ANOTHER NOTE; I found out that I've won 2 competitions!

I am amongst the 15 students that have won prizes! I don't know whart I've won because they'll only announce it on the day of the Opening Ceremony in Solaris Dutamas. I hope I've won one of the top prizes; even though I wasn't even expecting it. :D But it'd also be great if I won a consolation prize. It doesn't matter because I'm still so proud of myself! Hehe. I'm so happy I learned how to use Photoshop man, seriously. Without it, I wouldn't have even been acknowledged by this German institute; Goethe Institut. Hehe. Can't wait for the event! March 2nd, marking it on my calendar!

Another contest is the Tech Stylo contest! Top 3 winners WOO! I don't know if this means I'm the first or the 3rd but I assume I'm still one of the top and I hope that I've won a Canon camera because that's the only reason why I put so much effort into this competition. THANKS EVERYONE FOR SUPPORTING ME THROUGH THE CONTEST! It paid off after all. :D Hehe.

My future is in the UK!

2011-02-13T19:19:00.006+08:00

I'm on holiday! Just in case you didn't know. :P My holidays began with an ultimate EXPLOSIONNN!

Celebrated birthdays! After Jas's birthday was Nikki's. :P With everyone's busy schedules, we could only bring her out for an overload of shrimp from Bubba Gump. xD Hahaha! Some more catching up IS IN ORDER.

Love you girls. I miss you guys. ):
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The weekend then began by having a surprise Zorbing celebration for Bear in which was an absolute success! Hehehe. Our plan was to go SkyTrekking but end up getting lost in Serdang. HAHA! Who knew it would actually work. The fact that we stressed her out (AND Yvonne Tan too) made the situation more friggin' awesome. Her face when we surprised her was priceless! It's too bad I didn't manage to record it. ):

Anyway, zorbing is like WICKED. Such a great experience! We were strapped into this giant ball and then pushed down a 150m long hill! Hahahaha! It was just a roller coaster ride except we got wet and dizzy and it was just an absolute screamfest! xD

After that, we ate and played at DesaPark City. Getting dizzy was the theme that day since we played on the swing for hours. Hahaha! Anyway after that, we sent Simba off and escaped to Engwei's place to bake and cook for the surprise party the next day. :D But apparently, Simba figured our plan out since her aunt brought to her house, packets of Coke and tons of roasted chicken wings. =_= Who wouldn't suspect a party? HAHA! But she was ecstatic nonetheless even though the surprise was a failure. But the party wasn't so she was as happy as a little girl on crack. xD

The surprise crew.

Thanks to everyone for their help and for attending both surprises! :D It was difficult to plan but successful (almost) nonetheless! :D

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So, due to jetlag, I'm wide awake now and blorging like there's no tomorrow. After being in the UK for 2 weeks, at my age (I'm not that old I'm trying to point out that I have grown up and am more mature than before HAHA I R WISE), experiencing the people around the countries that I've visited makes me understand why Malaysia isn't the best environment to study in. As much as I love being home, where everything is easy and there's hardly anything to adjust to, I have accepted the fact that Scotland is the place I truly want to be in when pursuing my studies in Architecture. SCOTLAND IS AWESOME AND BEAUTIFUL. I'm sorry for ever judging the place before actually visiting it.

Strathclyde is the number 1 choice for me, seeing as it's the only university I know that accepts 3rd year students (only 'cause it's twinning with Taylor's which gives me an advantage). Other universities accept 1st and 2nd years and also students taking their Masters so it's obviously near to impossible for me to apply for 3rd year unless I have a 4 flat CGPA and an awesome folio but even then, I'd only be considered. So, Strathclyde it is. :D

I love the UK. Everyone is friendly and polite (okay, not everyone but maybe like 90% of the population?). It was a total culture shock for me to be there and accept the fact that a total stranger would spare 10 minutes of his life helping you buy train tickets to Oxford Street. Everyone there is generally, NICE. And I love that. I can learn to be patient and less rude. I can't in Malaysia because I lose my patience very easily here. The people reflect the beauty of the country; I LOVE SCOTLAND AND ENGLAND. (:

Another great thing is that most of my friends are and will be studying in the UK. So I'll be a plane or a train ride away from everyone. :D Not to mention the opportunities for travelling, ALL OVER EUROPE. I AM ECSTATIC. Counting the months to studying abroad!

Posing in front of the yellow submarine!

TEEHEE.

A glimpse of beauty in Manchester; the city of BRICKS BRICKS BRICKS.

So ... have you? :P

Bullring is a gorgeous mall. GORGEOUS.

Contrast of old and new.

"... but you love Ladysmith Black Mambazo!"

Glasgow's shopping district.

View of Edinburgh from the White Castle!

My favourite area. Why?

LIGHTS. ((8

Glasgow School of Arts; aka HOGWARTS.

A mall in Bristol. I don't remember whart it's called. Circus ... something. :P I love the use of materials though! LOOK AT THE ROOOOOOF.

Shopping Village outside of London! My mom (and everyone else) went crazy. xD

It's hard to believe that Rowan Atkinson graduated from this place. It gives out such a snooty vibe. But it's still a beautiful town, Oxford.

Amir; the soon-to-be civil engineer. :P Hahaha! Can't wait to visit you again. CALL ME WHEN YOU'RE IN KL YOU NGOK.

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So I'm on holiday. I have 2 weeks left to chill before stress takes over. On the 16th, I find out if I've won the Tech-Style contest by Viewnet, on the 25th of February, my results are out so I pray I did well enough to boost up my CGPA, on the 2nd of March, I have that Goeuthe Institut Exhibition to go to in Solaris (REMINDER TO SELF; CALL THEM BEFORE 25TH OF FEB TO CONFIRM ATTENDANCE) and the rest of the days, I'm free. :D Yay!

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Happy Vday JY. (:

Challenge Accepted

2011-01-24T02:26:00.011+08:00

UPDATES AND CHALLENGE DELAYED TIL AFTER I GET BACK.

1. A letter to someone you care about. ✔

The letter that will never be sent out to you.

2. Lyric(s) to a song you love. ✔

We were strangers starting out on our journey
Never dreaming what we'd have to go through
Now here we are and I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me I was going to find you
Unexpected what you did to my heart
When I lost hope you were there to remind me
This is the start

And Life is a road and I want to keep going
Love is a river I want to keep flowing
Life is a road now and forever
A Wonderful journey

I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there whenthe storm is through
In the end I wanna be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

I knew there was somebody somewhere
Like me alone in the dark
I know that my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing's gonna tear us apart

3. A recent photo of yourself. ✔

Meow. :3

4. A video that made you laugh so hard you cried. ✔

I can't choose so here's three!

5. A letter to your best friend. ✔

"Dear best friend,

I know that you are my best friend when you piss the hell out of me and yet, my love for you remains. I know that you are my best friend when I go to certain extents to cheer you up when you are even the slightest bit down. I know that you are my best friend when even the ugliest side of you is accepted by me. I know that you are my best friend when I forgive you for any wrongs that you have done. I know that you are my best friend when even an uninteresting random object would remind me of our inside jokes. I know that you are my best friend when I know you care as much for me as I do for you.

FOREVER AND EVER, SHALL I LOVE YOU.

Love, your best friend." ♥

6. A photo of something you love in your room. ✔

7. A song that describes your life. ✔

These are the songs that will forever be apart of my life; I suppose these songs, in a way, describe every part of my life experienced by myself ... ?

Fix You.
I'm Still Here.
Digital Love.
At the Beginning.
Seasons of Love.
Vindicated.
Kissing You.
Faithfully.
Thinking of You.

8. A quote that you really love. ✔

Johnny Depp ; "I love to read about World Wide News. "Woman's bra bursts, 11 injured", that sort of thing."

"If you talk to God, you're a very good person. If God talks to you, you're a schizophrenic."

"Dear People of the World, I don't mean to sound slutty but please use me whenever you want. Sincerely, Grammar."

"Only boring people are bored."

"Life is like photography. We use negatives to develop."

Oscar Wilde; "Fashion is a form of ugliness so intolerable that we have to alter it every six months"

9. Your favorite television program, and why. ✔

Friends because Chandler is my definition of a perfect husband and also, WHO DOESN'T LOVE FRIENDS?! I COULD WATCH THAT ON REPEAT FOREVER.

10. A confession of your choice. ✔

I only refuse to do things my mom wants me to do only because she wants me to do it. I wouldn't have chosen Architecture as my profession but I figured out that that is my passion, along with photography, only because she made me take this course. I wouldn't have chosen Scotland to study in but she flew me all the way there and got me to fall in love with Glasgow so now I'm choosing to study there. I hate to love the things she's making me do. But sometimes, there are things I hate.

26th January 2011.

Before I forget, HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIKKI MY LOVE. Can't wait to see you on Friday! :D Anyway, SHORT SEMESTER HAS OFFICIALLY FINISHED. FINISHED I SAY FINISHEDDDDDDDDDDDD!!

I was in the research group so I'm proud to show the world, our thick, thick, thick report!

BWAHAHAHAHAHA!

I need to download more cartoons. W00T.

Happy Birthday to the GROUNDDDDDDDDD!

2011-01-22T01:10:00.004+08:00

This week has truly been eventful. Lily's birthday, sleepover at Viddy's, Jaslynn's birthday, WORK. Same ol' same ol' (not).

I'm not in the mood to type right now 'cause I only had like 4 hours of sleep last night. So on behalf of yours truly, I present to you, pigtures;

Miss you guys! (: And Mr. Jock, hope to see you when you get back to Malaysia. But by then, I'll probably be in the U.K., so hope you visit me there! :D

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Happy 20th Lily! More photos of her celebration to come. >:)

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Happy 20th my precious pig wife! LOL! I hope you had a good (totally not normal) birthday and I hope you love your LGM (it matches mine YAY!). Wishing and praying for you to have a good year ahead. And if that giant does anything again (I'M WATCHING YOU), you know I have your back, with a baseball bat in one hand and a spoon in the other. :P Btw, the card I made you shall be a reminder of how much I less than 3 you (and also for you to remember your love for Monokuro Boo). LOLOL!

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The shoes I have deeply fallen in love with from Vans. TT So ... awesome.

The things I have splurged on today (Oh the guilt. The sheer and utter GUILTTT).

Back to spacing out.
U.K. in a week! Egg-cited! I shall wear my banana sweater with PRIDE.

It's a moo point, a cow's opinion. It's, moo.

2011-01-17T02:27:00.003+08:00

My life has been revolving around writing a report about ornamentations on roofs and shit liddat. I've typed about 4.7k words so far and I AM STILL NOT DONE. Lord. It's taking forever to finish this. Haha. But I hope I kick ass at my part of the report heeheehee. My seniors will regret asking me to add onto my previous report HEHE. Good luck proof reading MY DEARS. ♥
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Went out for dinner with the Edisons. We hadn't seen each other for like donkey years so it was wonderful to catch up again. Jock's in town so we were ecstatic that night we saw him! Still the same skinny boy. :3
Will continue work again later in the morning and then will be having a sleep over with the Edisons as a farewell for Jock because we wont be seeing him for another 3 years. ): Boo. I hope I can visit you in the future my love! :D
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This is just a random photo of my adorable Lizzie. She looks innocent here but she really isn't, trust me.
I have one and a half weeks left until the short semester ends and I'm ON HOLIDAY WOO. Will be celebrating 4 of my lovelies' birthdays during the few days I will be here before leaving for the U.K.
Oh speaking of U.K., my family and I are flying there this February to check out universities (or so my mom tells me) but I'm pretty sure she really wants to go just for the sake of visiting Scotland because she's (still) trynna push me to study there. Whatever man. Haha. It's just my rezeki larh. :P Anyway, yeah can't wait cause I haven't been to England since I was 14 and back then, I didn't have my precious Jack so you can imagine the shit photos I took. And now, I get to photograph Scotland YAY! I hope one day I get to go to Paris and Amsterdam again so that I can shoot those beautiful cities again too. (: Teehee!
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This is Taemin from Shinee. HE IS THE SHITZ but he's 18 this year so Jun You's right, I'm a cougar. BOOOOOOO!
OMG BTW, my mom just found out about Jun You HAR HAR. She was questioning me like she usually does in her extremely paranoid, hectic, loud way. Since he's a cinaboy and all, of course questions about race and religion smacked me right in the face. But my mom tried to disguise her concern by asking me if Jun You's parents approved of me and all I said was, "They don't care. It's not like we're getting married". And then she scoffed and was like "ARE YOU SURE?!". And it went on and on, even bringing up the ex and how different our relationships are. Adui. Hahaha. It wasn't so bad. I prefer her finding out (well it wasn't really finding out, it was more of confirming her suspicions) this year rather than last year because ... well yeah.
Oh and the way she found out was stupid. Okay, I bought a new wallet right (I went on a shopping spree last week WHEEEEE) from Fossil and I wanted to show her because I'm like so happy and proud of it (haha). And so I was all, "Ma check out my leather wallet! Smell it!", and so she grabbed it and was like oh yeah yeah nice then she opened it and I was like "Hoshit sonovabitch! JY's photos are in there", and then she saw and I grabbed my wallet and giggled and well yeah. Haha. Use your imagination. Those who know my mom can CLEARLY imagine my situation. :P

Anyway going to bed 'cause I'm suppose to wake up at 8 and it's almost 3am HAHA Gonna be late again AS USUAL. Ogay baiii.

If the word sex makes you giggle, you ain't ready for it.

2011-01-08T23:47:00.002+08:00

Okay. Enough larh. I need to rant so badly right now.

I understand now, the story behind it. But I am so friggin' pissed that it had to be my friends who suffer. Why are there so many assholes in this world? And why do my friends FALL for these fucking assholes who don't know how to take care of beautiful, intelligent girls like themsleves?! And then they just break them into a million pieces and leave them fucking depressed and practically suck the life out of them. WHY DO THESE PEOPLE EXIST?

Seriously, I'm speechless.

I understand why now. But please, I beg you, realize why this fucking cunt of a guy is an asshole. Realize why he isn't worth the time. PLEASE REALIZE THAT YOU DESERVE BETTER, PLEASE.

Boom boom boom, even brighter than the moon moon moon!

2011-01-06T18:09:00.010+08:00

It as been 6 days since 2011 had arrived, therefore, a New Year's post is desperately in order! 2010 has been a year of MILLIONS of events. Let's list down my most favourite and memorable ones.

Singapore with Ms. Chua.

The Melaka getaway. (:

Cha cha's birthday.

Redang trip.

SuJu, live in Malaysia.

Rainforest Festival in Sarawak.

Shanghai Expo.

The Katy Perry orgy. <3

My wife's surprise birthday party!

Turkey trip.

My precious 19th. <3

Langkawi.

Fruit Mesh project at the Melaka Arts and Performance Fest. :D

Origami project in PICC.

So how did I end my year? Well I remember a few years back, I had an idea of how to celebrate NYE with friends and that's to picnic facing the Curve in One Utama's roof car park. Well that happened that last day of 2010. xD Haha. We chose to avoid anything that included crowds! Lol. It was seriously the best way to celebrate a new year, with friends, my boyf, karaoke, card games and tonnes of fattening food! Hehe.

Eating sushi whilst playing snap! xD

The Jim Carrey look-a-like. SCARYHHH.

Watch the fun! Skip to 1:43 to hear the extreme screaming! :P

The next day, I met up with Jas and Nikki for some extreme quality time. Sitting on our asses for hours, just, talking. LOLZ. I miss youz alreadyh.

I then invaded Jas's house and took advantage of her Gloomy bear arm plushie thinggy. Hugged it to sleep and didn't let go of it til the next morning. HEHE.

RAWRRR.

Jas bought me a retarded looking bunny from Europe. It's monstrous looking. Hahaha but I love it. Thank Jas!

2010 was a bittersweet year indeed. For me, all these good memories came with an equal share of horrible ones, one being the break up that shook my whole world. But from these experiences, I've learned to not be so attached, to be patient, to be hard-working, that nothing comes for free, that anything is possible if you put in effort. Hopefully 2011 will be a better year and I hope everyone I know and love will have a great year to come. (:

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On another note, I just handed in 20 sketches today. Yay!

I FINISHED IN TIME TO SLEEP HAHAHA SCREW YOU SKETCHES.

I LUST FOR A CANON 550D

2011-01-02T14:54:00.006+08:00

Hello my loves! I will update about NYEs soon but first, please help me win this contest that I'm participating in! I can win a Canon 550D. :'D Something I've been trying to save up for since last year! :'D

If you have facebook (who am I kidding, of course you do!),

First, you must help me like this link:
CUT OUT MAGAZINE

And then, help me like my photo! :D
MY LOL-EST PHOTO EVER

AND THERE'S ANOTHER LINK ON FB! They accumulate votes so here's another link!

Like this page:
VIEWNET COMPUTER SYSTEM

And then like my photo again! They'll accumulate the votes. :D
THE SAME LOL PHOTO :D

PLEASE HELP ME OUT! (: DEEPEST THANKS AND LOVE FROM ME FOR THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN HELPING ME VOTE AND ALSO SPREAD THE WORD. I heart you. xDD
HAPPY 2011 EVERYONE. (:

I can't wait for 2011.

2010-12-29T00:24:00.004+08:00

From Hubby to me. :P He angered the beast, therefore he tried to sweeten her up with a Domokun bag.

My Christmas card to him. (:

Because we're lovez dovez liddat ... Awwwwwwwww ... NOT. Teehee.

Nikki listed her bad memories on her blog and I think that's an awesome way of reflecting on the idiotic parts of 2010, ergo, I shall follow her example and list down a few horrid (not really) memories from my 2010.

Lansi - I'm such a brag.

Old - It's impossible for me to be 19.

Crooked teeth - Apparently, I don't take care of my dental hygiene.

Nagging mother - Need I say more?

Break up of the century - Yeeesh.

Popping alcohol cherry - Oh dear.

Dark - For some reason, it's wrong to be tanned.

Workaholic - I'm all about work. I'm no fun. I have no social life.

Not good enough - I'm not good at whart I do.

Melayu-celup/Melayu murtad - Yeah, I'm just a tanned Caucasian.

Stress - STRESS.

Development of eye bags - A factor to looking OLD.

Pulling an all-nighter - Will never attempt this again.

"Oh, you studied in Africa? Did you stay in a hut?!"- OMG. GOOGLE CAPE TOWN WOULD YOU PLEASE.

Modern Muslim - Seriously, there is no such thing.

Glee - Just because I love Glee, doesn't mean it's my life.

Kaki clubber - I CLUB LIKE EVERY DAY WOO.

There're millions more; these are off the top of my mind. This list will be left on my blorg as a reminder for me to be more patient and thick-skinned. 2010, thank goodness you're coming to an end.

2011, BRING IT.

Kongsi House of HORROR

2010-12-22T00:10:00.004+08:00

I came back from a 4 day trip to Penang yesterday. It wasn't a holiday trip, I kid you not, twas the official start of my dreadful short semester.

On the first day of the trip, we traveled via bus on a 5 - 7 hour trip from my campus to Georgetown. It was the worst bus ride experience of my life. I've ridden on buses to EVERY WHERE before but this was seriously the worst only because the bus was old, smelly and felt like it belonged to a convicted murderer. The driver actually looked like someone with a history of some sort of crime. Throughout the trip, he kept playing loud and depressing Malay music. GAWD.

Anyway enough about that. Whilst there, we got to see many of the historic buildings that my group and other's had to measure. My building is Cheah Kongsi and ... I'm happy I'm in the communications team cause CAD-ing that building would probably make my hair drop off completely. Not that I'm any good at AutoCad; hence the C+. So I'm in the group that's in charge of researching, interviewing people, writing reports and etc. I definitely prefer writing reports that CAD-ing. LOL! Didn't do much measuring. Teehee. ((:

This is the Cheah Kongsi. LOOK AT THOSE ORNAMENTS. GASP. Most of the groups that visited the Kongsi House were like "WTFHLMAO your building is so complicated haha". Boo! Lol. It's pretty difficult looking for information on this building too! The Cheah's are friendly but pretty kedekut when it comes to story telling sigh. And also, when I was observing the building, I seriously couldn't guess how the structure worked. LOL! I have to do some massive researching man.

This is Bob! He says HI.

The one night we camwhored. After that, my camera was filled with pictures of buildings and ONLY, buildings. THIS IS MY LIFE IN ARCHITORTURE SIGH.

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I may have won a prize from the Cool Art competition I was forced to enter last semester. Hoyeah ... ? Lol. I got things in the mail today. One of which being an invitation to an exhibition by the Goethe-Institut in Solaris Hartamas next March. This is suppose to be some sort of grand reveal on who won the Cool Art contest. So I may have won or may not or whatever shit. Haha.

In other news, I got my peacock necklace and waterproof Lomocam today! :D The necklace is very pretty and the lomocam, I've decided to name Grinch because it is green and it arrived before Christmas. Yay!

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I told my mom that I'm gonna stay in Malaysia next year. She seemed relieved. HAHA. Whatheck.

Need to run errands! Send Jack to the workshop. Develop film. Spend time with hubby (is this an errand? LOL). RESEARCHHHHH. Gah.

Christmas is on Saturday! To friends who celebrate it, Merry Christmas hohoho! :D

I shall immortalize Mr. Fabian's quote by typing it here; "DAMN STUDENTS!"

2010-12-15T17:09:00.006+08:00

Other than being an absolute train wreck this week, being sick and shit, I've had a pretty awesome week! The Origami project is DONE! Celebrated Melvin's birthday! I won the cool art competition in which I totally DID NOT expect to win! My portfolio is done! But one more thing awaits, my results. Goddamn portal with it's glitches. I'm so curious as to whether I screwed up my results or not. Apparently, many people didn't do too well. I'm so fucking scared wtf. I'd cry if I didn't get an A. Holy shit.

Lol! Banners made by Lily and Yvo. So hilarious.

There are actually gigantic cranes as well but I was totally against that, therefore I shan't post up photos as a protest. LOOOL. >:P Photo were taken by Willow. Jack is still handicapped. )):

I'm happy with the results, I suppose. The Jellyfish project was much easier and I think coohler but that could just be me being biased over liking more organic things in comparison to symmetrical origami. :P Sorry Mr. Fabian. Haha! But I still love whart our group has made nonetheless! Awesome work man. AWEZUMMM. Thanks Mr. Fabian for the opportunity to make something for a pretty big event! And for the food you sponsored (teehee). ^^V

♥

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18:09pm; It's been 10 minutes since I've checked my results. I have mixed emotions about them but I'm mostly happy that I didn't FAIL.

Of all the things for me to get an A- in. I expected my Studio work to get me an A, or even my Building Con. (if my chances were good enough), but CULTURE AND HISTORY 2?! Wtfh. This coming from a person who has never gotten an A in History EVER. And the paper was fucking TOUGH. TOUGH TIL I FELT LIKE CRYING, TOUGH. I DON'T GET IT. ROFLMAO. I suppose it's a good thing I got an A- for at least one subject. Further maintaining my above 3 CGPA but it has dropped when comparing to last semester. ):

Studio and B. Con, both B+?! I could've been like points away from getting an A-! D: How frustrating. But I'm happy I didn't fail Comp. Apps. or ESD because those are the ones I thought would bring me down. But Comp. Apps ... SIGHHH. Y U C+?! If I got a B- at least my results would be prettier! TT Oh well.

AIM HIGHER NEXT SEMESTER. HWAITING!

STOP OVER SELLING BONES FOX GEEZ

2010-12-11T16:15:00.010+08:00

The year is close to an end. I would like to express my gratitude towards my parents for allowing me to go to SO many places in this one year of 2010. Thank you so much. :D Lets list them down;

1) Singapore
2) Redang Island
3) Kuching, Sarawak
4) Shanghai, China
5) Taiping
6) Vietnam
7) Turkey
8) Malacca (twice)
9) Langkawi Island
10) In a weeks time, Penang Island.

I'm pretty fortunate eyh.

I'm kind of confused as to whart I should pursue for the upcoming year. Should I try to go to England or not? Getting a scholarship to England on your second year is tough shit, seeing as there are barely any universities that offer such things. Due to the circumstances; the lack of second year scholarships and the fact that I'm doing well getting my name around the industry (konon PFFT), I might just stay in this beloved kampung of mine until the time comes for me to fly off to my new home. I mean, if I go to England without a scholarship, use up my parents' money and shit, whart's the point? The point is for them to live easy; in luxury whilst I study under full scholarship from some big shot company or university right?

So it's best to just wait and be patient. Keep collecting good grades and testimonials, keep making thick, "impressive" portfolios, keep creating awesome relationships with the most awesomely artistic local architects and people in Malaysia, and keep building up on experiences.

Okay enough about my ridiculous thoughts. I've been on holiday and it's been 11 days since our final presentation had ended (I thought holidays were only suppose to be only 10 days? LOL). Anyway, for the pass week, I've been doing A LOT. Spending time with wives, Origami project, Langkawi -- STONINGGGGGGG. Teehee.

I won't go into detail about everything (because that would be revealing a bit TOO MUCH) so here are some photos of the epitome of absurdity and tomfoolery that is my holiday.

This is us being LALA! Hahahahahahahahaha. This is only one of many photo shoots to come. Maybe the next one will be a rempit theme? Harajuku? Jersey shore whore? :P Hahaha.

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A sneak peek as to whart us archi-students are up to for the upcoming MSC event next Monday. Origami madness!

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This was the third day of being in Langkawi. The other 2 days were ... lets just say not to my expectations. This was the best day of our trip to me because it was the most relaxing day EVER. I loved it. Sleeping on a hammock, drinking chocolate ice blended drinks, eating turkey ham sandwiches, watching the sun set. BLISS.

Hoyeahhh. <3

Sun sets are love. I will never despise the colours of a sun set. It's a palette that's forever evolving.

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Ivy and I went to go watch Peter Pan the Musical. As excited as we were to relive our childhood through the theatrical attributes of fellow student (I assume) thespians, our excitement was fully flipped over to disappointment as we watched intensely, the agonizing musical that ripped us of an hour of our lives.

The musical was clearly for children of an extremely young generation because it barely followed the story that we grew up knowing. The songs were taken from OTHER musicals (cough WITHOUT LOVE HAIRSPRAY?!) and well ... it was just disappointing. Oh well.

I just ordered a waterproof lomocam WTF.
Okay larh that's all.

10 days of relaxation ... ?

2010-12-02T21:28:00.002+08:00

3 days have passed since freedom of 10 days begun and so far, 'twas spent really well. Tried some new things - Bedz KL, seafood in Asia Cafe Damansara, seafood near Changkat, screaming org*sm (LOL), shopping with no regrets (fuck yeah) and all that hoopla.

Obviously, 10 days is not enough (this is BARELY a holiday) but I'll have to make due with whart I've got. Next Monday, I'll be going to Langkawi for 3 days. It's kind of worrying me that I might not have a place to stay but Gawd lets hope my dad saves us.

Will be meeting Jas tomorrow for some sort of shoot. Before that, will have to run errands which include going to the clinic to check whether I have diabetes (I know. Out of the blue).

Whart have I been up to?

2010-11-28T00:39:00.003+08:00

THIS!

CLICK HERE PLEASE AND THANK YOU

If you're too much of a lazy bum and is unable to lift a finger and force it down on top of a clicking mechanism which is attached to the mouse in which you harass every day, then stare at these photos.

My cellphone's wall paper. Snort.

Exams are over and I am screwed.

Presentation board is done for Tuesday.

Portfolio is 75% done.

My legs are ridiculously sore.

Partying is just around the corner.

I need to shop.

Langkawi in a weeks time.

CANNOT WAIT FOR THIS TO END.

HUNGRY.

Cause blorging is a good excuse for not reading

2010-11-24T23:25:00.005+08:00

Why did my mother give birth to a girl who has no passion for reading (other than my sister)? Am I THAT impatient and lazy that I can't go 10 minutes of reading without being distracted by something, everything and ANYTHING? I might as well dig my own grave like right now.

I think my only hope of getting an A this semester is if I impress the lecturers grading me for my final Studio presentation next Tuesday. That is, IF I impress them. My confidence is at the edge of some imaginary cliff right now, ready to plunge to it's disgustingly horrid death. I have no hope of getting A's for the rest of my subjects (according to my mother, this is me, bringing myself down). I'd honestly be ecstatic if I just didn't get a C in my report, let alone a D. Imagine the ugliest thing you've seen in your whole life; that will be my crying face if I get a fucking D.

Why can't everything be project based? I think I would ace everything if it were so.

This is no psychological war between my mind and my actions; this is for real. I came into this semester, aiming for a 3.7 for my CGPA. Looks like that goal will never be accomplished now. This is not high school. In high school, slacking off was allowed, getting E's wasn't a big deal (at least, to me it wasn't), but this is my future man. Scholarships are at stack; but why are my grades bringing me down? Why do I try so hard and still get these results?

Sometimes, I wish I was born with a silver spoon in my mouth; but I guess this is God's way of telling me to fight for what I want and need. Tough shit.

154 LOLLL

2010-11-24T00:37:00.002+08:00

If you've seen over 85 films, you have no life. Mark the ones you've seen. There are 239 films on this list. Copy this list, go to your own Facebook account, paste this as a note. Then, put x's next to the films you've seen, add them up, change the header adding your number, and click post at the bottom. Have fun.

Teen/ Romance:
(x) The Cinderella Story
( ) Another Cinderella Story
(x) Step Up
(x) Step Up 2
(x) High School Musical
(x) High School Musical 2
(x) High School Musical 3
(x) Hannah Montana Movie
(x) Enchanted
() Sydney White
Total: 8

(x) She's the Man
(x) Licensed to Wed
(x) The Break-up
(x) 13 going on 30
(x) 27 Dresses
(x) P.S I Love You
(x) Made of Honour
(x) What Happens in Vegas
(x) Get Smart
(x) The Princess Brides
Total: 10

(x) Camp Rock
(x) Wild Child
(x) Ella Enchanted
(x) The Princess Diaries
(x) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement
(x) 50 First Dates
(x) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
(x) Hotel For Dogs
( ) Just Married
(x ) Freaky Friday
Total: 9

(x) The Hot Chick
( ) Sleepover
(x) Confessions Of a Shopaholic
(x) Twilight
(x) Nancy Drew
(x) The Devil Wears Prada
( ) No Reservations
(x) Perfect Man
( ) Australia
(x) Never Been Kissed
Total: 7

Comedy/Humour:
(x) Yes Man
(x) Bedtime Stories
(x) The Pink Panther
(x) The Pink Panther 2
(x) Marley & Me
(x) Cheetah Girls
(x) Cheetah Girls 2
( ) Bratz
(x) Haunted Mansion
(x) Paul Blart Mall Cop
Total: 9

( ) The 40-year-old virgin
(x) Night in the Museum
(x) Night in the Museum 2
(x) Evan Almighty
(x) Bruce Almighty
(x) White Chicks
( ) Neverending Story
(x) Meet the Spartans
(x) Meet the Parents
(x) Meet the Fockers
Total: 8

( ) Scream
( ) Scream 2
( ) Scream 3
(x) Scary Movie
(x) Scary Movie 2
(x) Scary Movie 3
(x) Scary Movie 4
(x) American Pie
( ) American Pie 2
( ) American Pie Band Camp
Total: 5

Adventures:
(x) Harry Potter 1: The Sorcerer’s Stone
(x) Harry Potter 2: The Secret Chamber
(x) Harry Potter 3: Prisoner of Azkaban
(x) Harry Potter 4: Goblet of Fire
(x) Harry Potter 5: Order of Phoenix
( ) Lord of the Rings: Fellowship of the Ring
( ) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
( ) Lord of the Rings: Return Of the King
(x) Chronicles Of Narnia: The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe
(x) Chronicles Of Narnia: Prince Caspian
Total: 7

( ) Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark
( ) Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
( ) Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
(x) Indiana Jones and the Crystal Skull
(x) The Mummy
(x) The Mummy 2
(x) The Mummy 3
( ) Journey to the Centre of Earth
( ) City of Ember
(x) Finding Neverland
Total: 5

(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean 3: At World's End
(x) X-Men
(x) X-2
(x) X-3
(X) Spider-Man
(X) Spider-Man 2
(x) Spider Man 3
(x) King Kong
Total: 10

(x) Hellboy
( ) Star Wars Ep. I The Phantom Menace
( ) Star Wars Ep. II Attack of the Clones
( ) Star Wars Ep. III Revenge of the Sith
( ) Star Wars Ep. IV A New Hope
( ) Star Wars Ep. V The Empire Strikes Back
( ) Star Wars Ep. VI Return of the Jedi
(x) Underdog
(x) A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(x) Batman: The Dark Knight
Total: 4

Action/ Thriller
(x) The Matrix
( ) The Matrix Reloaded
( ) The Matrix Revolutions
(x) Terminator
(x) Terminator 2
(x) Terminator 3
(x) Ocean's Eleven
(x) Ocean's Twelve
(x) Ocean's Thirteen
( ) Casino Royale 007
Total: 7

(x) Bourne Identity
(x) Bourne Supremacy
(x) Underworld
(x) Butterfly Effect
(x) Death Note
(x) Death Note 2
( ) Death Note 3: L Change the world
( ) Resident Evil 1
( ) Resident Evil 2
(x) I, Robot
Total: 7

(x) Rush Hour
(x) Rush Hour 2
(x) Rush Hour 3
(x) Mission Impossible 1
( ) Mission Impossible 2
( ) Mission Impossible 3
( ) I Am Legend
(x) Predator I
(x) Predator II
( ) Signs
Total: 6

Horror:
(x) Saw
(x) Saw II
(x) Saw III
( ) Saw IV
( ) Saw V
(x) The Grinch
(x) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning
(x) The Ring
( ) The Ring 2
Total: 6

(x) Final Destination
(x) Final Destination 2
(x) Final Destination 3
( ) Ghost Ship
(x) From Hell
(x) Child's Play
(x) Seed of Chucky
(x) Bride of Chucky
(x) Gothika
( ) Nightmare on Elm Street
Total: 8

(x) The Grudge
(x) The Grudge 2
( ) The Haunted Apartment
( ) Siren
(x) Silent Hill
(x) The Mask
(x) Son Of The Mask
( ) Alone
( ) Omen
(x) House Of Wax
Total: 6

(x) The Eye
( ) The Eye 2
(x) Shutter
(x) When the Stranger calls
( ) The Fog
(x) The Orphanage
( ) The Skulls
(x) Cruel Intentions
( ) Cruel Intentions 2
( ) House of 1000 Corpses
Total: 5

Cartoons:
(x) Lilo & Stitch
(x) Ice Age
(x) Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
(x) Madagascar
(x) Madagascar 2
(x) Kung Fu Panda
(x) Bolt
( ) Wall-E
(x) Monsters Inc
(x) Shark Tale
Total: 9

(x) Shrek
(x) Shrek 2
(x) Shrek 3
(x) Finding Nemo
(x) ET
(x) Cars
(x) Ratatouille
(x) Toy Story
(x) Toy Story 2
(x) The Incredibles
Total: 10

Inspirational:
(x) Little Miss Sunshine
(x) I Am Sam
(x) The Day After Tomorrow
(x) Coach Carter
(x) The Last Dance
( ) To Kill A Mockingbird
( ) Conrack
( ) Midnight Sun
( ) Little Black Book
( ) Rwanda Genocide
Total: 5

Classics:
(x) Ten Things I Hate About You
(x) Titanic
(x) Romeo & Juliet
( ) Frankenstein
( ) A Midsummer Night's Dream
Total: 3

mmmmlomo

2010-11-22T19:25:00.001+08:00

The obsession is growing.

Swimming in a pool of utter laziness

2010-11-20T01:03:00.003+08:00

Obviously, it hasn't kicked in yet that exams start on Monday. It's ridiculous how much notes I haven't covered. Thank goodness B.Con is easy to understand. I'm screwed for Culture and History though. I'll be lucky to score a B, seriously.

So if anyone's noticed, I've been busy with this fruit mesh installation thing which is for an exhibition happening in Malacca. Been neglecting my studies for one whole week just to sew (I'm actually using this as an excuse to not read because I hate reading and you know it). But work has come to an end because we've officially completed our mesh project! The bad thing is, there're no excuses for not studying. Gawd. I'll start after a good night's sleep. Teehee. I shall refrain from reading in front of the television (I hope).

Chocolate fountains are awesome. (Y)

For raya haji, mother decided to bring us to Cyber Lodge in Cyberjaya for a buffet lunch. A totally unknown and secluded resort in the middle of Cyberjaya with nice landscaping and pretty good food. I suppose it was my mother's attempt at bringing me to an interestingly designed site. It was pretty, I must admit. Kinda sad how unknown it is though.

This is my foot. Taken by a lomocam ... app in Willow. LOL! Lomo-photogs might murder me for such a crime.

2010-11-15T20:03:00.002+08:00

You try and you try, to do your best, to be better than you were before, but it's never, NEVER enough. Why must I put in so much effort? Why do I even try? The more I try, the more my goals grow further apart from me. This is hard and mentally draining. Whyyyyyyyyyyyy caaaaaaaaaaaaan't IIIIIII produce perfectionnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!?$E?wkufhksajfh

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UGH.

Leng lui peeewiittt

2010-11-15T01:13:00.004+08:00

I told myself to stop being gooey on the inside when it comes to boyfriends but ... sigh. Even though you're as hard and tough as a rock on the outside, I can tell that you're as gooey as I am on the inside, as much as you don't want to admit it.

You're probably the most annoying and lazy bum monkey I've ever met but behind all that is the patient, generous and pretty man that I love so very much.

Between me and him, 75/75 = 100% which to him means Maths Love. LOL! I don't know. He's lame liddat.

Love you hubby.